So Tired

by Jennifer Bell-Lang
(Earth)

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Hey all,
Things seem to just get worse. I have been trying for almost two years now to help other people, ever since I have recovered my own memories but I have found it extremely hard to connect with others who have means to help. I try and try and try and yet I seem to always get shoved into a corner and told to shut up. Damb, I am so freaking tired of it. I have to keep a happy heart though in order to live and not hurt others but sometimes I just get so angry and then I end up hurting myself, it sucks cuz most of the time I just drink and smoke and then I wake up with a hangover and the story starts all over again, but I still have to deal with the fact that I wrote the refugee paper against the United States, I found out way too much about color physics than I should have, and I changed the world, for the better I hope but when the @%&! do I get anything more than street credit! I just don't understand why people don't listen and if it has to do with embarrasment than god, take a breath, at least you weren't molested and photographed! I am so thankful that I have this venue to vent but I am also a little oppressed by just having to communicate on the bloody computer!
I have so much to say and so much good to do in the world and I just keep getting shafted by scared people. Wake up and help already!
Lot's of love,
Jennifer