Child Abuse Story From Name Undisclosed104
by Name Undisclosed
(Location Undisclosed)
He said Don't Tell:
I was 7 years old, doing what most 7 years old do, running around, playing, making lots of noise whatever. I ran into my stepfather's den one day and yelled "Play with me!" I interrupted him watching a porn video of course at 7, you don't really know what porn is, and the only thing is saw was kissing. I apologised to my stepdad for interrupting and was about to walk out when he grabbed my arm and and told me to sit down. He'd pressed pause on the remote and went on to explain to me that he was just watching people play a game. He then asked me if i wanted to learn how to play. "OK" I said. I had no idea what i was in for. He asked me if i'd ever been kissed. i shook my head. He told me to close my eyes and then he kissed me on my mouth, like i'd seen him kiss my mom. When he stopped he asked me if i liked it. I nodded. It hadn't bothered me, it was just a kiss. He did it again and then again. And then he told me i was playing well and i needed to learn how to play the next level. He told me to close my eyes again and then kissed me again. Suddenly i felt his tongue rolling around in my mouth. It felt strange and i wasn't sure i liked it, but when he asked me if i did i nodded. He kept kissing me like that for a while until my mother called me. "best go see what mum wants" he said. I got up to leave until he grabbed my arm again and said "Don't tell. Its our special game". I nodded and he let me go.
Nothing happened again until a few days later he picked me up from school. We stopped on the way home and he asked me if i remembered the game we played. When i said yes he said he wanted to play it again. "OK" i said. So he kissed me like he had kissed me that last time, his tongue rolling in my mouth. he told me we were at the next level and i should kiss him like that too. So i did. Ten minutes later he told us we should go home. When we got home he stopped the car and then told me again "Don't tell". After that, the kissing games became regular, whenever he got me alone. One day, i was alone at home with him and he told me he wanted to play the game. He told me id reached a new level of the game. He didnt say anything else after that and just kissed me. As he was kissing me i felt his hand go down my backside and suddenly i felt his hand on my bottom. he kept pinching it as he was kissing me and i felt his finger touch me inside my bottom. It felt weird. It didn't hurt then it just tickled. When he stopped he asked me if i liked it. I nodded. He took my hand and led me to the sofa where he made me lie down and continued to kiss me. Suddenly he stopped kissing me and pulled my skirt and underwear off. Then he began kissing me where my privates were. he asked me if i liked being tickled. I said yes. He then touched me on my private parts. I didn't like it it hurt, it didnt feel like being tickled. But i didn't say anything, even when he asked me the usual question - did i like it? We heard my mom's car drive up and he told me to put my skirt back on. As i did he said those words again. "Don't Tell".
My stepfather played this game with me for years, sometimes he would pretend with my mom that he was just going to tuck me in bed and he would play the game with me then. The other times were either when he would pick me up from school or whenever he got me alone at home. Unusually i wasn't afraid of him then. I was 10 years old when i realised that these games, weren't games. I didn't know exactly what they were i just knew they i weren't right. I was older and started learning things which was at the point i knew it wasn't right. But for some reason the games continued, i didn't know how to stop them. i tried saying i didn't want to play once but he didn't listen. i started to hate him then. But i couldn't escape him. After my 13th birthday he'd come into my room and did what he usually did but that soon followed with him taking my virginity. When it was over he told me i was a big girl now, and the games were going to stop. Then he said those words before he left my room "Don't tell". He never came into my room again, and he never touched me again either.
So what happened after that? Well i couldn't live in the same house as him after that, and i made a story to my mom about having done research on high schools and i wanted to go away to a really good school. So i did, and i tried to avoid going back home over the holidays but i had to come back for some and i felt dirty everytime my stepfather looked at me.
I'm 19 now and i'm in college but i have a boyfriend who i can't enjoy having sex with. Everytime we do i see my stepfather and all i can do is cry. He doesn't know what happened to me. I told my steptfather i would never tell. today is the first time i've said anything.
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