Child Abuse Story From Emily L
by Emily L
Started when I was seven. I desecrated a crucifix I received from my french catholic school nuns. My Mother told me not to go into a tent with a little blond arab boy. I went. he pretended to rape me. I felt the earth move around me and in me. My brother, four and a half years older, and I played strip poker with my other older brother, nineteen months older than me. My oldest brother performed oral sex - fellatio - with me in front of my favorite brother. The universe changed. I had nose bleeds. My parents fought constantly. Beatings, black and blue. My brother rubbed his penis against my clitoris but didn't penetrate me. I asked him to do it again. He said "No!' and he never touched me again. I asked a friend with my same name to come over to spend the night, at age nine, and I rubbed my body against hers to the point of orgasm. I became a perpetrator. Mother was killed in a car crash in which my father was driving when I was almost ten. I became promiscuous from age nine on. One partner a year, age nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen. All girls my age. I was smart and funny, but fat. Didn't get my period til age twelve. Didn't get my period except once a year maybe til my doctor gave me thyroid at age 43. I never had children. I had 25 kissing partners then 25 sexual partners til I got married at age 34. I have been married 23 years, but never had children. I was date raped twice. Never got pregnant. had minor infections a few times. Treated. No sex now. I can't stand it. Eating too much. Pray a lot. There are saints in the catholic church who help with nervous diseases - St. Dymphna and a few others. have had all kinds of therapy. My older sister married her only boyfriend. they have two sons, five grand kids and have been married 45 years now. My Older brother paid for a girl friends' abortion in college, lived with several woman, married one and had two kids with her, then divorced her after 32 years of marriage. I accused him of abusing me, and his wife asked me if he had raped me. I wonder if oral sex counts as rape with a seven year old and then again with a nine year old.  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on: Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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