Still Breaking Down

by Kaila
(Ohio, USA)

I was 7 years old spending the weekend with my father. It was 2007. Believe me, I was a daddy's girl. He owned a big part of my heart. But that one night my dad mixed pills and alcohol together which is a no-no and he almost raped me. If my grandmother never came home I believe my father would have took my virginity. Ever since that day I have been stuck seeing shrinks. They have me on medication for depression anxiety and PTSD. I can't be around a man alone without being paranoid.

I still have dreams about that night. I can't see my dad anymore. If I do I will get taken away from my mom. Thinking about him makes me breakdown till this day. My life changed that day. I am f**ked up emotionally and mentally because of the man that helped create me.

And he raped my stepsister and is facing jail time. I am 15 probably, getting ready to testify against my own father. Life is cruel and I am sorry to all that have experienced molestation, rape, abuse, anything, because it's a horrible thing to go through.

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