Relationship Violence Story From Senia1

by Senia
(Connecticut, USA)

He told me he loved me: 
I will always remember the day he said "I love you." It felt like my world had become better. We were dating on and off for almost 3 months. And after I would break up with him he would beg me to come back, and I would. After a while he became obsessive, constantly calling me on the phone and showing up at my house.

One day we started arguing because I was talking to another guy. He called me names that hurt me so bad, and told me that I would never find no one like him, that he hoped I would end up with AIDS, and that he would kill me and any guy around me. But those were only the words. I didn't expect what came after.

We were arguing for 9 hours, when he started putting his hands on me. I have been abused as a child before and I felt so helpless. I prayed to God that I would survive that night. I couldn't get free from his grip and I was walking around with bruises all over my body reminding me of him. It hurt so bad to know that the man that I once loved had become a monster.

I will never forget that day, when all the things I went through flashed before my eyes once again. I tried to move on and forget, but every time I walk the streets I feel so scared. Each night I dream about what he did to me that night. He has left another scar on my mind and heart.

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Sep 07, 2009
I hope you're NOT with him any longer...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Senia, I sincerely hope you have broken up with this guy. He's bad news! You're worth so much more than what he is offering. Yes, he hurt you that night, and yes, you are feeling a sense of mourning from losing what you thought you had. But always remember that you didn't really have it in the first place. He may have told you he loved you, but he most certainly did not show you that love. REAL love will NEVER hurt. And you are worthy of dignity and respect, not more abuse. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

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Sep 08, 2009
Anger at what this animalistic so called Male human being did to you.
by: maurice

Senia 1. with Darlene I to hope your miles away from this deceptive speciaes of male. He is not your normal male species thankfully his kind are few and far between. Unlucky you to have been deceived by him. The majority of the male population around you are genuine, sincere honest natural in theri respect of each other and the female person they wish to have as a friend in the hope of building a relationship with. Horrific what he did on you Senia1. No excuses can condone his brutality on you and your beautifulness. Senia 1. You are just one very special woman, It was not your fault what happened, you trusted him but learned the wrong way he was not a Man. Only a user and abuser. He did you an injustice by not respecting you and your feelings especially if you related to him you were abused as a child. Letting Go of that night, that you must Senia 1. with the help of your friend or friends that you trust, who love you for who you are being ever so brave and having the courage to trust them with your pain of child abuse and this pitiful man who treated you brutally. Begin with their help and support and that hopefully of a therapist building up your own SELF WOTH and Your SELF ESTEEM. Only you can Senia 1. Begin today loving yoursefl and your body. I am a true believer in having a good mirror image of oneself. Oh yes it is not a silly thing to ask you Senia 1. Look at the wonderful and beautiful me in the mirror. Saying all the positive things about yourself that maybe you never thought you should. Think Positive, Act Positive, Be positive while doing it. Pee away the negative stuff you may have been saying to or about yourself. I can. I will, I must just for me. You'll feel good each time you do. Be gentle and kind using all the soothing creams available to erase those scars and marks inflicted on you by that Brute. You know deep down there are genuine, sincere men out there. He was the bad one that you were unfortuneate to trust. You'll be fine. Live well, Laugh alot, Love much.

Jun 08, 2011
My heart still empatises with you
by: maurice

It always will: I sincerely hope on this day of your life you are at peace with your true self: You have found underdstanding people to be around: A friend or two who will hug and cuddle you and acknowledge you for the great Senia 1 that you are: There is greatness and goodness in you: Always believe in yourself: Let go fo the memories of all that beast did to you: I sure hope you are having a healthy mind in a healthy body: Out there with your friends and like-minded people into keeping fit with active minds to Live well: Laugh Often and to LOVE much:

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