Talking is Healing

by Michelle F
(Missouri, USA)

I was abused long time ago. I just recently got caught for meth, part of my abusive behavior to my self, plus drinking. Finally got counseling. She showed me how I was the one that kept myself being abuse over and over. Because I kept giving my abuser the power to control my life even 30 years later even after he passed away. I was angry and crying still. She said what happened to you was not your fault and it should have never happened even though you did not choose what happened you can choose to leave that part of your life behind. Don't forget but forgive. I was so sick to my stomach. Every waking hour I would let it creep back into my life.

I have learned stress management. Even though I still have a drinking problem I am better than I was.

I just want to say to anyone, talking is healing even if not completely. Sometimes talking to a stranger will help you not feel so judged. In time, I hope to conquer drinking. But now I can say I live my life without dying all over inside every day.