Sexual Abuse Effects From Sarah

by Sarah
(Borden, Ontario, Canada)

I can't believe what I did! 
My parents brought me to the hospital yesterday because I threatened suicide. My father brought me to the hospital and I talked to a crisis worker about how my older brother did sexual things with me when I was younger. My father and I were alone in a room in the hospital and he started to get upset at me because I had taken my bracelet off that the doctors had given me to wear and I ripped up a card that the crisis worker had given me with info on it that was important, and so my Father grabbed me by my wrist quite harshly and he also pushed me when I tried to open the door to get out. He kept on grabbing me and I told him to stop grabbing me or I would hit him and so I did I smacked him in the face and I couldn't believe I had done something so horrific. I feel horrible. I can't believe I did that. I am ashamed of what I did and I'm sorry for what I did and I hope I never do that ever ever again. I hope he can forgive me as well.