Groomed By Uncle
by Mike H
(San Diego, California, USA)
My abuse started with an uncle who was always a really cool guy. He would always hang out with us kids and buy us things and was always interested in what I was up to.
The first time it happened was when I was about 10 and he bought us all beer. Me and my two friends got drunk and after they left he showed me some porn. Then he put on some gay porn acting like he stumbled on it. I was very excited from watching porn in general and was also drunk, so I was pretty vulnerable to his seduction. The seduction was mild at first, just a finger and some oral sex... but it was extremely pleasurable and I was swept into it. The next day i felt beyond terrible. Not only did I have my first hangover but I was totally confused about the whole thing. I wasn't sure if I was gay and that really alarmed me. And, even though we didn't have sex, I was terrified that I had caught something.
As the day's passed I found myself thinking about what happened and masturbating about it. Then it happened again. Only this time, I knew it was going to happen and I let it. We drank, my friends left, we watched porno and he molested me. This went on for years. Eventually he got more and more abusive. He used my innocence to take advantage of me in many ways.
Now I'm 32 and I'm not only an alcoholic but I'm also addicted to prescription drugs. I'm gay, and I think that has to do with my early introduction to gay sex. In short, it ruined my life. You wouldn't think something like that would have such an impact but it does.
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