Don't Want to Go

by Name Undisclosed
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I really don't want to go to this wedding...  
I'm the scapegoat in a narcissistic family. Mom is the narc, dad orbits, older brother is the golden child, younger brother just seems to suppress everything and everyone denies there was any abuse in our perfectly hellish family.

Younger brother is getting married. I don't want to go. It's small, just a few friends and family. My family is horrible to me, always instigating or doing blatant things and denying all of it. I don't see why I need to subject myself to a few days with them, wedding or not. It'll be awful, I'll be a target for evil people and I'm stressed already.

So I don't want to go. I'm wondering if skipping a wedding is too rude. I know it will make things worse, but I'm carrying all the blame and torture. They all pretend everything is fine while stabbing me in the back every chance they get. There's no relationship already, so I don't see why I should give them a chance to roll out the furtive abuse.

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