Discipline Or Mistreatment

by Name Undisclosed
(Location Undisclosed)

Right now I am a teenager but when I was younger like two-three years old, my mom used to say she was disciplining me she used to leave me bruises as she spanked me for little tiny things like pour my milk on my oatmeal. I was always told that was discipline. But one time I remember so clearly was after eating at Mcdonalds she took me home spanked me and said she was "cleaning me" as I was still in diapers at the time, but the more I realize about how exactly it felt she was touching me wrong.

And when I was 9-13 I had these rages fighting with my brother who was also 13, and my parents always threatened him not to fight back, but it kept going and I didn't hit hard, my brother did, twice as hard. My parents have hit me and spank me hard, and shove me to the floor, and recently beat me with a belt. I told my friends about my parents doing all of that. I got in huge trouble for that. I can't ever tell anyone about my young childhood, and I am at loss. My parents tell me that if my brother fights back, whatever he does to me I deserve it. And I told my cousin before about my brother and parents, and I just need a secure safe place to share, because I can't take holding back my emotions anymore. I am 15 and I'm still going through it.

My parents are super strict and won't accept any of this, and they deny this information to this day and tell me that I never apologized when I did. My parents humiliate me and my mom is emotionally abusive too. I just don't know if this is all abuse or discipline.

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