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Dec 15, 2009
EVERYBODY who visits this site CARES...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

It most definitely IS a big deal. None of what has happened is your fault. NONE OF IT! Don't you ever believe that garbage. You are NOT pathetic for crying out. You were a little boy, for goodness sake. It hurt on so many levels; of course you had to cry out. Your father is a sick and twisted excuse for a human being. He doesn't deserve to have you as a son. Your brothers were courageous. And yes, you too are courageous...far more so than you give yourself credit for. Courage isn't about not screaming out...courage is about fighting on; and you my dear precious young man have fought on. I wish I could put my arms around you and tell you how much you are loved. Let this be a virtual hug and an "I love you." Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

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Dec 15, 2009
by: santagirl

That is just horrible!, any type of abuse is horrible, and you suffered through a lot of bad stuff at such a young age! the important thing is to keep going, keep living... and rape is NOT all you're good for, u are way better than that, and i dont need to know you to tell you that! htats exactly how i used to think, how i still think for half the time but its NOT true, we ALL deserve better than that. INCLUDING YOU! you deserve all the best!, u nvr asked for that treatment, and i know what you mean bout remebering everything, its hard, and things often seem hopeless.. PLEASE for the need of more good people in the world, if not for yourself. CHANGE HOW YOU THINK!! i know its not that easy, but all it takes is dedication and a will to feel better. i always say its a sin to kill a childs innocence. and yours was killed in the worst way, but dont let that jade your view of life, or your ability to love or trust or to see the good in people like it did to me, allow yourslef to feel like your worth all the world, but most of all, allow urself to feel, its the best feeling in the world.

Dec 15, 2009
I care, I care, I care!
by: Anonymous

Your "father" doesn't even know how to love himself at all...oh, and whatever happened to you and your brothers is never your fault; your "father" is really the one to blame because he was very sadistic towards you guys and he really should get incarcerated for all those terrible crimes that he committed against you guys. I hope that you guys are in a safe place now.

Dec 17, 2009
Dear Numb Boy
by: Anonymous

Dear Numb boy

Do not ever let anyone convince you that what happened to you was your fault. It was not your fault. You are amazingly courageous and strong to have survived those nightmares. You are going to make something fantastic of your life on account of the courage you already have. I too am sending you a virtual hug, my love and prayers thanking God for the strength he has given you and asking that He continues to make you strong. There are good people in this world and I am convinced you will recognize some and get all the kinds of help you need as you go forward in your life.

Dec 19, 2009
My heart pounded while reading your story.
by: Dan1

Oh my god kid. You been through so much little man. I mean I understand that every one on this site went through so much as well, but after reading your story I realized that it was very "violent". My childhood was taken away from me too little dude but I still cannot say that " I know how you feel". But you know what the best thing is? You're still alive! I'm still alive! and a lot of the people that posted their stories here are still alive! You know what that means? It means that we survived our abuse, our nightmare, or "Hell". We all had strength in us this whole time and didn't even know it. And you might think that you survived (escaped) out of luck which I can understand but it wasn't that at all, it was because you had strength that you didn't know about in you and I'm sure of that. If no abuse victim would of had any strength left, there would be hundreds or even thousands of suicide reports everyday on the news . I was a Lil boy like you once too. I was scared and confused after my abuse I just turned 20. And I'm happy to say that i'am stronger and happier than I ever was before. And I'm sure that you'll come across that joy too. Be kool little man. You can do it.

Dec 20, 2009
have hope
by: Marce

hey listen dont let this make u feel worthless belive me ur dad was a real jerk and what he did was wrong but dont let this be the center of your life. your brother tryed to protect u for a reason, if they got hit as u said trying to protect u then this means they really really cared about you so dont let your self down, they wouldnt had want that and no you are not only good for "rape". you are a human being and no kid should go throug, what you lived. remember nothing would make ur brothers happier than seeing u become a great guy. i hope you are with them or keeping contact because they really seem like great brothers dont let them down! and about the rape thing (sorry for mentioning it again), it was not your fault OK? so dont blame your self

hope you have a great day Marce....

Jan 08, 2010
hang in there
by: Anonymous

i have been through something too,though my story wasnt as bad as yours..and yet you share youre story.That is the one thing i cannot do,you must be an exrtemely strong person.Thank you for sharing you have given me strength to go on...the stregth to believe that eventually i too will break that barrier...all my love and support xoxo

Jan 12, 2010
Thank you
by: Anonymous

Thank you, Numb Boy, for your courage to write this all down. I didn't go through half the things that you did, and maybe still do, but I know how hard my time has been. You are so very brave and strong to even be trying to deal with all of this now. I wish you and your brothers all the best -- you deserve to be happy and safe. We all do. I'm so sorry you had this kind of a start in life. I'm the mother of two little children now, and I can't imagine anyone doing this kind of harm to them. I really hope you can work through this, let yourself be sad and angry about it, and then get to the happier parts of life. There is so much beauty and love out there - I promise. And a lot of people are ready to help you have a better life. Take care, and remember you are a good person, you have people who love you (what wonderful brothers you have!)and you deserve to be happy.

Jan 15, 2010
Numb Boy - do you know you are a miracle?
by: Mark

Numb Boy,
You are a miracle to have survived all that abuse. I "hear" from your story that it's hard for you to believe anything good about yourself, which is why I thank God you've found this website. I really hope you read all these comments, because these good and worthwhile people and I are trying to tell you that you are a GOOD and WORTHWHILE person too.
Maybe you're not sure what to believe; if that's the case, then I beg you: TRUST US!
You are NOT alone. Some of us suffered child abuse as well; I'm a survivor of childhood rape like you, buddy. And because of that, we KNOW your pain - we've BEEN there; maybe some of our experiences weren't as tragic as yours, but we know the aftermath of what you're feeling.
You are NOT pathetic. Would you tell me that I'm pathetic because I was abused? I KNOW I'm not pathetic, and therefore, I know NO ONE is pathetic or weak because they were abused - that includes YOU, buddy.
You are most defintely NOT to blame. Look up other websites or talk to hotlines - or better yet, keep reading the comments these caring people are sending you - they will tell you the exact same thing.
You're not even to blame for the abuse your brothers took for you. How could you be? You didn't want them to be abused either. If you could have wished away their abuse too, you would have. Your brothers protection of you were acts of heroism (heroism from children, no less). I hope your brothers find this website as well; they really should know they are miracles too.
Lastly, you are LOVED, buddy. At the very least, your brothers obviously love you; and I hope you "hear" the emotions coming from these people's comments, because we love you too. God, I wish I could tell you day in and day out how brave, strong, and terrific I think you are, but I have to settle for writing it here. But if I can see all that in you, lots of people out there will see it, too. Find them. Tell them your story. All of it. They will tell you all the same things I have. I SWEAR to you they will.
Thank you for bravely telling your story. Find the help you need, OK? I'm counting on you, little buddy. Please don't let either of us down.
Your most sincere friend,

Apr 02, 2010
by: what do you mean NO BODY CARES??

My name is brenda, and i think your dad is sick and disgusting and a waste of air in this world. He is one of many twisted sick human beings that live around us. You were little it was NOT YOUR FAULT ...I will pray for you everynight, I know we don't know each other but you are an angel and I believe in angels.

Jun 17, 2010
so sorry
by: Anonymous

to numb boy i am so sorry that you had to go thru all you went thru. I will be praying for you. if you were my child i just would hold you and let you cry it all out. My child did not go thru what you did but all the same i pray that your perp gets convicted for life!!! he dosent even deserve to even live. but i am not God and God will punish him. God bless you, a mom who cares

Jul 06, 2010
I'm so sorry
by: John

As I read this story, I almost cried listening to you recount how you were battered at the hands of this pervert who calls himself your father. I am so sorry they did this to you. Do not ever feel like you deserved this, you did not! You are going to heal. I know it may not seem like it right now, but I have been in your position before where I just didn't feel. It is a stage all abuse victims go through and you are not alone. It's gonna be all right. I just wish I could reach out and hug you. Cry if you need to that's how we heal.

Aug 18, 2010
Here for you
by: Noreen

You can come back and we'll talk. We are here for you and always will be. Whenever you're ready.

May 03, 2011
u poor kids
by: Anonymous

u father was an selfish agroant pi g he just fault himslef all t they were asbuse but dont belive some people wnt father but some dont know how luckily were not have abuse father like pig u father was

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