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Apr 20, 2008
TELL someone...
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

You've done nothing wrong, Nicki. What your father is doing is what is wrong. You are not to blame; it isn't your fault. Your father has all the power. You do not deserve what is happening to you. You need to get help. You cannot do this by yourself. TELL someone. A teacher. A counsellor. A trusted friend. Someone who can help you.

Better yet, make the phone call yourself. It is not safe for you to stay in that house with your violent and molesting father.

In the United Kingdom contact: ChildLine on 0800 1111

You are SO worth getting help for yourself.

Darlene Barriere
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

Apr 20, 2008
Your dad's a pervert
by: Francine

Nicki, I'm sorry that happened to you. You might want to call the police on your father because he is a despicable, inferior, disgusting, childhood-stealing molester who should be in prison for the rest of his miserable life. I really feel you, Nicki.

Apr 21, 2008
definitely tell someone!!
by: Kat

Nicki you have to tell someone, in no way do you deserve this, you are a beautiful young woman and this should never have happened. None of this is your fault. PLEASE TELL SOMEBODY!

Apr 21, 2008
im sorry
by: brittany landreneau

hey gurl
i know how it is i hvae went through kinda the same things i am so sorry
this has happend to you

Apr 21, 2008
My heart is breaking for you
by: Linda sue Tidwell

Niki, That man who claims to be your father is a monster! Child pornography and rape would send that B######D! to prison for life. The first chance you get call the police and tell them what is going on! That child molester and rapist has probably done this to other children and will do it again if he isn't stopped now!He is a sick and dangereous person who should be behind bars with no chance of parole. Take the power away from him and call the police, now.

Apr 22, 2008
My gosh..
by: Vicky

Nicki, your story has literally brought me to tears. I seriously cannot imagine how horrible it could be for you. I'm 13 at the moment and just typing to imagine how you were treated at the age of 12 is unbelievable. You deserved nothing but the best. My heart goes out to you. I'm truly sorry this has to be part of your past.

Apr 22, 2008
by: Anonymous


Apr 22, 2008
i cant belive it
by: savy

look i have never felt that pain.
i can not imagine where to start.
you really need to tell someone.
i mean think you could wind up dead.
get out of there!
you deserve so much better!
just tell someone. it will be okay.
you can do it be strong. get through it.
i know there is someone you can tell a school councler or police.
so please get some help. your story put me in tears!!!

Apr 23, 2008
by: Nicki

Thank you for all your kind comments. I've decided I'm going to try and get out of here. It's just not that easy, I keep working my way to telling someone and then something happens and I can't, it's like I freeze and there's nothing I can do to stop it. I know it sounds stupid, but I'm determined to keep trying, I don't want to stay here anymore, thank you for making me realise this.

Apr 25, 2008
I can't begin to know everything you're going through, but...
by: Anonymous

I don't know what its like to be sexually abused like that or anything, but I do know how hard it is to tell someone. It took me a long time to do anything against my family. but in the end once you do it there's this sense of power you overcame one of your hardest fears. I can't say my situation got much better, but I can say that I have high hopes in your situation that there is a way out for you. You don't need so much courage as you need to just believe in yourself that you could do anything and let the story be heard. Let your heart guide you into talking to someone and let your mind know that someday soon justice will be on your side.

Apr 29, 2008
Hang on
by: Hayley

Hang on in there kid, it's not your fault and you have done nothing wrong. Your mom was totally out of order to tell you you were lying. Is there any way you can get out of the house to tell someone in confidence? It's terrible that you have to go through this. You are without doubt a strong person to have coped for this long. You are special, make no mistake about that, but not in the way that your father and obviously his friends think you are. You have been so strong for so long, and will hopefully soon be able to feel proud of surviving for this amount of time.

Hang on in there kid, and beat thee sick cruel people.

May 01, 2008
by: Hayley

Don't worry Nicki, I only told the poilce some of what my brother did to me because he threatened me not to say anything. It will take a lot to do, but you are so strong that you can do it, get justice and get out of there.

Go girl, you can do it. I have friends that I play Ice hockey with on Friday nights and are the same age group as you. I'd take a fat lip or busted nose to protect them from hassle from anyone on a public session. Disclosing what you are going through now may be hard and harrowing, but you deserve justice and safety.

Good luck kid, we're all on your side.

May 13, 2008
You have done NOTHING wrong
by: Tara

Sweetie, listen to me and all the other people who have wriiten on this post...You have done NOTHING wrong!!! You need to tell someone and get out of there!! You are just an innocent child. And please, forgive yourself. The lose of the baby wasn't your fault! It's okay to feel relief. You are only a child, not anywhere close to being ready for motherhood. You need to know that the reason you are still where you are is not because you have done anything bad, but because you haven't told anyone. PLEASE, sweet girl, Please tell someone. I have a 13 year old daughter and this story just breaks my heart, as all of them do. As a survivor of abuse myslef, I beg you to get out. It will never end unless you tell some one and get away from the place you are at. God Bless you and keep you safe.

May 23, 2008
You deserve far better...
by: Elaine R

Dear Nicki,

There is NO WAY on this planet that you deserve for any of this to have happened to you. DO NOT EVER believe that you are anything other than a lovely, smart, wonderful person who needs and deserves a good life with a supportive, caring family.

You are a fantastic, courageous person. The fact that you say you are still here, a survivor, at 14, after everything you have been through is NOT a punishment. Please don't think you deserve to be punished. No! The reason you are here is because you are brave and strong. You have a will to live. And... just maybe your destiny is NOT to be a victim forever. Maybe the fact that you ARE still here, is a sign that life has something better in store. You are here, and that gives you the chance to seek help...

Nicki, you MUST seek help. I understand what it's like to be scared of my parents, and of punishment. You will need a lot of courage to go get help, but remember, you have ALREADY shown SO MUCH courage, because YOU are a survivor!

There are clearly many things you need to deal with. I am so sorry that you lost your mum. I am sorry that she could not be there to protect you the way you wanted. I only hope that it helps you to hear that you are NOT responsible for your mum's actions. As an adult, she should have been able to provide the support you needed. You did the right thing, telling her of the abuse you suffered. The sad truth is, that it is probably HER guilt that lead to her actions. It sounds to me like your mum believed what you said, and would have liked to help, but just did not know how, and did not possess the strength that you do. Hold on to whatever loving memories you have of your mum. Time DOES heal.

Your father, however, DOES NOT deserve to get away with treating you so badly. He is utterly irresponsible in his actions, and behaving in a most dreadful way. NO WAY should you have to be the victim of his cruel abuse.

There are several options you could think about. You need to try to get away eventually, to somewhere safe. You need to tell someone what is happening... a friend, friend's parents, a teacher, anyone you can trust. Like Darlene said, you can call Child Line, as they are helpful. If at any time you are in immediate danger through the actions of your father, then you can call the Police. You could also ring the NSPCC helpline for people at risk of abuse - it's in your phonebook, and it's free to call, 24 hours. Or try ringing the Get Connected young people's helpline (again in the Yellow pages). The other thing you could try doing is going somewhere like your local Youth Group, or even better your local Connect Young People's Health & Information Centre, and talking things through there, if you can. There are people out there who'll know what to do, and can begin to help you get the support and assistance you need.

I wish you all the very best.

Jun 03, 2008
my prayers are with you
by: chris

I know how hard it is to tell, especially after you've told a parent who didn't believe you, but please tell someone. Trust your instincts, find an adult you trust and tell. keep telling until someone believes you. i know how hard it is because when i wasn't believed i never told anyone again, at least not until i was an adult. i regret that to this day. if i had told, the horrible abuse would have stopped, the people punished and i wouldn't spend the rest of my life wondering how many other children these "people" had hurt. god bless you. It's hard, but it will save your life.

Jun 04, 2008
by: Anonymous

You need to what have you done that could be so bad to deserve this? NOTHING okay NOTHING no one dserves this? these other men need to be reveiled too it isnt right he is your father he is suposed to protect you not impregnant u then beat you half to dealth to hide HIS CRIME! you need to get out! you did nothing wrong he is wrong you are innocent he is wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jun 12, 2008
To Nicki:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

I'm posting this in an effort to release the other comments currently trapped in queue for this submission; there is a system glitch that has yet to be resolved. My sincere apologies for the delay in getting these comments to appear on this page. I realize it's an inconvenience, but rest assured, I continue to work at trying to fix this problem.

Darlene Barriere
Violence & Abuse Prevention Educator
Author: On My Own Terms, A Memoir

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