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Dec 03, 2013
Max:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

I can see and feel your broken-ness. And though I can understand why you've almost given up, I also see the potential for you to break open. You've endured the most vile acts against a child. And now you're tormented by the memories and the effects. But the effects are a direct reflection of your thoughts. You had no power as a child. You were controlled and taken advantage of during the most vulnerable time of your life. As an adult who can make choices and decisions, you CAN take back your power. But as long as your choices keep you in this place, your abusers continue to control you. The wilderness is a place to connect with Who You Really Are. A place where there is a peace. To run there for that peace is a positive thing. To run there to get away from all of society...not so much. Because there is no running away from you. You can change your thoughts, Max. You can turn this around. But it means giving up on the idea that things could have been different. I send you love, light and healing energy. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

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Dec 08, 2013
You are not alone.
by: Anonymous

Max, I relate to your feelings so profoundly. I too was abused by father and mother from age three to age fourteen. For several years I went on with my life going to college to be a nurse, married and children. I always was depressed and also had suicidal thoughts around eleven. I live with that thought all the time. When my son died at age seventeen, I cracked open or up. From then I have had twenty five years of psychotherapy by three people and two psychiatrists. I am still on psychotropic drugs for depression, anxiety and PTSD and I have chronic pain from fibromyalgia. The positive assertions don't mean much anymore. I am just weary and existing after this incredible mess which is my life.

Dec 08, 2013
From one who truly cares
by: Sharon Gracia

Max there are no words I can offer to undo the nightmare of your youth.But there are not thousands but millions of people out there.Who have been thru the same evil sick thing as you.My sister endured 4 years of hell,at the hand of a man my mother lived with.It started at the age of 2 and ended at the age of 6.And only because my Mother broke up with him.She never even told us until the age of 14.I took it on myself to hunt him down.Lucky for him he was already dead.Don't you dare let them win.Don't you dare harm yourself.You still have the moon and stars at night and the beauty of the seasons.And the God given right to love yourself.Try to enjoy the beauties of this Earth.Inspite of the ugliness of a handful of shameless cruel men.GOD BLESS YOU FOREVER.

Dec 18, 2013
escape
by: Scott 1

Hello Max. I can identify with almost everything you have written. Im a year and a half sober and feel no better. I understand your need to escape society as I have done so as well. I always believed volunteering and giving and helping would give good karma and undo the evil that happend. But it seems that attacks are random, unprovoked, and after a life time of them Im worn out. People stand on that line and make that choice to act that way and do those things to us. Once they choose to offend us, its their choice. Not our blame. When they put good people in therapy I think its a game to them to see how much we can take. Who plays these games and why? Yet they deny any illness or need for therapy. Perhaps they sence us easy targets or we give vibes of vulnerabilities that invite them. If that is true, it still is their choice to offend us, not out blame. People make choices, and dont accept responsibility for the damage they cause as they go off destroying yet someone else. This is where faith in humanity falters. Then we are looked at funny as being that odd person who stays by themselves and acts weird. I dont think thats a fair way to judge those who choose to stay alone. If they would simply listen and understand. Your post has really touched a nerve and I want to thank you for sharing. You are not , alone. Bullying comes in many forms if you train yourself to be a watcher. I became a watcher once I saw how uneven things in life are applied so I began taking notes of peoples behaviors. Tailgating another driver who chooses not to speed for instance. The nicest person who speaks to you in the store lineup can turn around and scream at you and run you near off the road. This has happened to me many many times. After enough of this its safer to stay home. In my opinion. Please Max, dont blame yourself. again their choice to be mean to us. Choice.

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