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Jul 14, 2010
Amanda:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

I have a strict policy about email addresses and personal information: they are strictly prohibited in order to keep you safe, which is why I removed yours. I would also say that your chances of survival are EXCELLENT, because you've opened up. But you must be WILLING to survive in order to keep surviving. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

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Jul 14, 2010
Don't give up
by: Mike

Your chances of survival are up to you, but you sound like you want to survive, so that makes your chances very good. If you have the will to survive and the patience to hold on, things will get better.

My story is much different than yours, but I was depressed and suicidal for many long years and now I look back and it's almost like that was my past life; now I'm living my new life. Some people move on with their lives in months, others years. Just keep fighting and something will happen.

Jul 15, 2010
A sadistic sociopath for a father
by: Anonymous

Amanda, a father that is as sick and sadistic as yours should never have any children...especially if he can't cherish, nurture, love or even protect them from harm. Your so-called father is truly twisted, warped, sick, sociopathic and cruel in his own ways of thinking...no to mention a control freak with an uneducated mind. He certainly didn't deserve to have such a beautiful, wonderful daughter like you...but most of all, you certainly didn't deserve to have such an uncaring, uneducated, unloving, ignorant, sociopathic, animalistic, barbaric, insane, heartless, soulless, ruthless, sadistic father. Oh, and killing animals and even making jokes about killing a poor dog in a bathroom while saying that he was acting like he was "doing that to you" really shows me what an uneducated, ignorant sociopath he really is. I have a black cat (which I have to share with my grandpa) and I plan to adopt a dachshund one day...and if my dad did something like that to either one of them, I will literally be so mad at him! Anyway, I am glad that this beast of a father is in jail now for all those terrible crimes that he committed against you and all of your beloved pets; however, I really hope that you're in a safe place now and that you will try counselling because you are worth the help that you need. Be brave, Amanda, and stay strong. Oh, and may all of your late pets R.I.P.

Jul 15, 2010
you will survive
by: Anonymous

Hello Amanda,

I never thought I would ever write about this as I like to keep the images locked away where it can never hurt me again. I want you to know that I lives with a pychopath, I had moved from UK to USA and I lived with him, he turned into the most evil, it was a daily brutilisism of my mind, emotions and physically body, he tortured me, when he could not get the pain from me that he needed, he turned to my beleoved pets, I HATE him for that, he was so cruel and he did it to hurt me, they took beatings and... I dont want to tell becasue I do not want the animal lovers on this site to have the picture in their minds... I escaped with 3 dogs.. I ran and never looked back, I saved them but it was through saving them that I saved myself... you see I was brought up in a home so abusive that I deserved what this evil an did, but my dogs did not...my heart stil bleeds for the ones he killed.. but I have turned it around by rescuing animals, I foster and take in the injured and I feel everyone of them is a gift that I can love and heal... Amanda it took me a while to stop being scared of everyone and eveything out side my front door, but I have a wonderful husband and a house full of pets with room for just one more..... Amanda you did not deserve this my love, but dont let the memories destroy you anymore, go get help, write in here, write poetry, go to free groups whatever it takes.. go rescue a buddy off the street and give that dog love, when you can love a dog your heart can heal... we love you Amanda you are going to be alright.

Jul 16, 2010
a little more
by: Amanda H

thank you so much for your support everyone. i just wanted to add that no my dad is not in jail. he got 12 days in prison and 10 years probation. he died in 2000 and im now living with the mother who stayed with the man who has all but ruined my life. it seems like the harder i try to change my negative thinking into positive thinking, the worse i get. Every time I say that today is a good day, by the end of the day I want to die. Im proud of myself though. Deep down I have the strongest will to survive because I dont know how I mange to wake up everyday and keep trying.

Aug 19, 2010
Today is a bit better
by: Anonymous

Amanda -
I used to try to force good days and found that it didn't work - maybe it was expecting too much at once and failing... over and over. Try, today is a little better. Remember, you've already faced the worst that can happen, and you've survived. Today is better. Acknowledge your anger by telling yourself that you have a right to be angry about it, anyone would... and then see if you can let it go. Sometimes, just agreeing with your feelings helps so much.
Whenever a memory flares up, something in me says "I hate my dad!" I then tell myself, "that's okay. I'd be crazy if I didn't." Then I move on. It helps a lot.
Good luck to you, Amanda

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