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Jan 13, 2012
Al:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

The messages you received from your deeply sick and twisted parents were lies; lies that you embraced as your own. Despite what you believe, you ARE worthy. You ARE worthy of love, of dignity, of respect. You will never convince me otherwise. Who You Really Are is not what you grew up with...Who You Really Are comes from a much deeper place. It's not too late to get help for your Self, Al. Please seek out some form of counselling or therapy to help you deal with the horrific abuse you dealt with. You're too worthy not to. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

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Jan 13, 2012
You are
by: Carrie

Hi Al,

I just echo, Darlene, you are worthy. I am so sorry that you went through such horrible abuse. Despite what they want you to believe, you did not deserve any of it. Your situation is not hopeless, you are not hopeless. There is help if you reach out for it, and believe it or not, right now in the dark place you're in, therapy can and does help. Please give yourself a chance, if you can't see anything else right now, grab onto the glimmer of light, that says, there is a chance it can get better, hang on tight and go after it.

Jan 14, 2012
Not true
by: Scott 1

Hi Al

I can still hear the words of hurt against me like a distant echo through time. I know its all bull. It took many years to realize my worth and what good I can offer. Stay strong, trust the good inside your soul and follow it to the light.

Jan 14, 2012
you're worthy
by: Rita M

It's really to bad that you had to go through so
much trauma.Deep down when you think of it you know your are worthy because you have survived
all of what has happened to you.If you could bring it up to the surface of your mind instead of a deep down thought.Make it aware to yourself that you are worthy of love respect and dignity.
There is unlimited hope.The thing is when you have had the essence of your child hood taken from you it leaves a void space in you.I remember
the times when I was alone.I started off by thinking "I am no longer in the prescence of my abusers".It takes a while to really understand the
thought.It is a way of starting to heal.It doesn't
register right away. but it is a start.You can start to nurture yourself.No one can take that away from you.It gives you strength to think that way and then you can start doing things you like
to do even if it were a walk or coffee with a friend or amovie you to treat yourself to.The important thing to do is seeing a councelor that has feed back.You need someone just for you.Someone that will hear and respond to your thoughts.Someone that will be there to see you through when your are in tears and when you are angry because you have held it in you for a very long time.Keeping it inside causes you to imprison yourself because that is what you are taught.Life has so much to offer.Someone told me "the late roses bloom the best'.When you release your feelings you are not falling apart,you are falling together.We are like an elastic band.When you have been stretched we are worn out.It's okay to let go and come back together just like the elastic band in every way you are made up.You will discover what a lovely person you really are.You are worth it.I am 50+ as well.I have gone through therapy and learned that it wasn't my fault.It's too bad that children are born into abuse.We never ask for that because when we are born vulnerable and are taught that we have to comply to a negative enviroment.They somehow think that children can only be seen but not heard.You are now an adult and when you start to pay more attention to your self the inner child starts to grow.You don't need to feel guilty because you are finally listening to yourself and you will begin to blossom because you are honstly worth it.I also had another thought that I developed and is "I will take my eyes off everyone that has hurt me".It takes time for you to come around on those thoughts because you've lived in those memories for some time.We are made to live in freedom in many ways.You owe it to yourself to become free just like everyone else.I bet you are a very nice person to be around because you probably care for others.Don't forget you exsist just like everyone else and you also have rights to be free and happy and to express your feelings.I hope you will begin to see that you don't have to carry someone elses shame.Please understand that you are also a unique person.Reach out you deserve it.Take care.

Jan 23, 2012
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by: Al

I believe It started out with me being taken from my mother at 3 days old because she was having a lung taken out from tb in the 50's.Then the murder of my soul begain.belt beating till blood came to the surface,hot tea water in the face,plus the pysological torture which I explained befor.I was told all of it was love!Please tell me what happened to my life i gave for others to know and hopfuly change this world for others(Its too late for me, Iam already dead but still walking)I thank God for those who lived !He is mercy full.Iam told now, I should just get over it, and others had it a lot worse,and most people have"worked"through it by my age.etc,etc.etc.

Jan 23, 2012
Look ahead /not back
by: Rita M

Hi Al,
You can't save the world or even change it.You have to decide what you want to do with it.If you have God in your life He is the way to the truth and the life.He guides you.It is never too late.You have been believing lies all of your life.When you
are dead it's when you have no hope.You are still alive and you can make the choice of helping yourself.There are councellors all around you everywhere now a days.Back from the 50's there was very little help and you dealt with what you got given.That was all there was then.You need to pull yourself ahead instead of backward.That basically is the first step.It's not about other
people it's about you.If you take your eyes off of the people that have hurt you it would also
help you to realize that you can go for help.It sounds horrible what you have gone through.I was a battered child and with my choice to "live"I
realized that maybe there is someone out there that will hear me.I have had alot of darkness removed and more light just keeps pouring in.I have more energy and I have more faith in myself
now because I found out that I am worth it.Your
abusers are no longer around you.Make yourself aware that you are still alive even if it means to take a bit of a walk.Let the sun shine on you.Let the breeze touch you look around you.No one is trying to hurt you.It is normal to feel a void and emptyness but you can start filling it up
with hope.Telling yourself you have no hope is one of the major reasons why you are still in the same spot.Call out to God He is there.If you can't seem to get through reach out to a coucellor
or a pastor or both.Abandonment is one of your issues.There is help out there free of charge.What do you dicide today?Life is waiting for you,are you going to take it?It's yours to keep.Life is a gift.It's for everyone.Be well
Rita M

Jan 23, 2012
Don't listen
by: Carrie

Hi Al,

Please don't listen to those who tell you to just get over it! It is not something you just get over. It is a process and a long one, one we really shouldn't have to go through. It is not to late for you that is a lie. Please the fact that you are here telling some of your story and responding says there is something in you, that wants help, that wants to live, that wants a better life. Thank you for sharing what you have, you probably don't know how much that helps others on here, it takes courage and strength to do that. You are not alone.

Carrie

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