Awakening and Dealing with Child Abuse

by Anon
(Location Undisclosed)

I found your website by chance today. It's not a coincidence that I was led to your articles on child abuse. I have started what I call my "awakening" since the middle of June, I started by reading Sacred Contracts by Caroline Myss and then moved on to A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. I have therefore been working with my archetypes identifying the elements of my psyche and this has led me to understand myself more profoundly. I was working on my past (wounded child, victim), my experiences (prostitute) and my chakras and soon identified that my illnesses were due to my fourth and fifth chakras as I have not been able to forgive, holding back my feelings and not speaking my truths. My initial thoughts were of times when I have held grudges and thought I was stronger by having values and it is these values that have held me back (saboteur).

I started reading Paula Horan's Abundance through Reiki and have now started her 42 day programme which I would recommend to anyone, I don't think you have to be Reiki attuned to benefit from this programme as the daily meditations would be beneficial to anyone.

Last week when I was on Day 3 the third chakra concerning relationships and sexual activities, I was informed by a medium that I haven't dealt with my childhood abuse fully. To this I cried, blamed an innocent in not protecting me, and the medium said that I needed to forgive myself. It is only now on reading your articles that I fully realise that I still thought that I was to blame, that I must have invited this abuse that went on for several years and I now know that "it wasn't my fault" that I still have healing to do to repair this damage. All my life I've been fighting, surviving, now during my intense awakening I can start the healing process. Thank you for your wonderful website. I am so glad I found it today.