All Too Familiar

by David
(England)

I was pleased at first to find this page, and comforted by the realisation that I am far from alone, but after reading the posts I was sickened, and aware that many have suffered more than I have.

I have been tormented by my spanking fetish all my life, frequently wondering why I can't just accept it. My mother was bi-polar, and would, on occasions, lose control, and chase me through the house, a cane in her hand, and in a rage. Whatever I'd done wrong needed dealing with, obviously, but it took me years to realise that this way was simply physical abuse.

I've had a lot if counselling, which has helped, but the fetish is as hard to deal with as it ever was. Despite this I have much in my life to be thankful for, however, there have been times when death felt like the only way out of this struggle with my sexuality.

Thanks for creating this page, it IS very helpful finding people who feel like I do.

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