Happy With Fosters

by Emily B
(Liverpool, England)

2003 was a big year for me, being the first year of my life, the year my mom died, the year I had to live with her.

The abuse started when I was four. I had been smacked and walloped all the time, but it was then I started to realise that I was abused. I always thought that abuse had to be like getting starved and having sex with older men. My nan got angry one day and beat me hard. I cried. My head teacher saw the marks and asked me about them. I told her everything. I was nine then. I got told the next day that I would be put in care. I was scared. My heart sank with regret.

I was happy and content in J---'s house. But she had a problem looking after me. I had anger issues. It got too much for her I guess. That was when I when to J & S. Let's say they weren't nice people. I had a soiling problem. They used to make me clean my dirty underwear in front of my friends which made me embarrassed. They did other things too that I don't want to talk about. I told my social worker everything. She moved me to another placement which I am happily at now. Today my social worker told me to talk to the cops. I am glad I am able to have fun again. I am happy now!

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Feb 09, 2016
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

I hope you continue to be happy where you are now. You certainly deserve happiness, and love, and respect & dignity. Whatever anger issues you may still have, you earned them. Just always remember that even when we have a good reason to be angry, it's not okay to use that anger to harm ourselves or others. Not that you have, just that there are constructive ways to channel the anger if and when it crops up.

It was really crappy that you lost your mom at such a young age, and that your nan was so misguided, perhaps with grief herself, to lash out in such a terrible way that you ended up in care. And it was equally unfair that you would end up in homes that were less than what you needed, and in one case, disgusting in the way they mistreated you.

Keep moving forward, Emily. Continue with your education. Make friends. Explore Who You Really Are safely. You are a good person. Don't ever forget that.

I send you love, light and healing energy. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

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