Coping is Hard

by Name Undisclosed
(Florida, USA)

At the age of three my mother married my step-father At first I thought it was nice because my siblings and I had a father figure. it wasn't very long after their marriage that the abuse started.

T-- was in the military before which made things worse. At the age of four to eleven I was being abused Physically, sexually, emotionally, and mentally.

At first I was lost but I thought it was okay because he was an adult and I thought he wouldn't do nothing wrong. At the age of 6 I started cutting myself to handle all that was going on. At the age of seven my bothers started sexually abusing me. I just kept quiet and cut to deal with everything.

A short while later we became homeless and had no place to go. We had a huge family and I thought that it would stop. It never did. When we were homeless we never went to school let alone eat. We never knew when our next meal was going be.

I can remember whenever we did something bad we would get locked in the basement without food for days at a time. Whenever I went to school I always wore long sleeves and jeans. My excuse was that I am anemic (which is true) and I was always cold. The thing that gave it away was me not talking to anyone and always saying I was fine. Until I was eleven.

I then got in foster care and I thought my life would be safe. I thought that when you go in foster care you were not supposed to be hurt. I was also abused in foster care.

Throughout my many years on this Earth I have been: homeless, sex trafficked, abused, beaten, neglected, in foster care. Etc. I have had a rough life but I am not here to take pity I want to share my story and even my scars from cutting myself with others and let them know they are not alone. I want them to know that I am here for them and that they don't have to be alone anymore. That they don't have to keep in the family secret. I want them to know that anything is possible and to never give up. Keep faith and hold on just a little bit longer.

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Aug 25, 2015
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Coping really and truly IS hard. I know from personal experience. And when you feel and believe (with good reason) that no one can help you, it can become unbearable.

It is so noble to want to share your story, scars and all, in order to help others and to tell them that they aren't alone. All too often we do that when we ourselves feel all alone. That's why it's so important to reach out to people who can help. Reach out to local organizations who give support. Maybe not another home, but support nonetheless. There are child abuse hotlines and domestic violence places for example, especially in the United States and Canada.

You didn't say if you're still in this terrible environment. Though it does appear that you are not. You also didn't say just how you're doing now. The fact that you want to help others does tell me how strong you really are. So in my heart, I know that you will get through this with your head held high, very compassionate and kind. And that tells me what a wonderful person you are. I hope you know that about yourself. And if you're anything like me, don't forget to take your own really good advice. You've turned into a lovely person, in spite of what you've endured. Treat yourself with the dignity and respect you deserve. No more cutting. No more self-harm. Only self-love.

I send you love, light and healing energy. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

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