child abuse story from Sorren page was created March 4, 2007 and was originally
posted on February 16, 2007 as story #82.
is from Harshwa, Wisconsin, USA
following child abuse story from Sorren depicts emotional abuse and child
The child abuse effects on Sorren: Sorren has turned gothic and suffers from depression, hostility, hatred, and a deep sense of being alone
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My dad was a drinker and use to abuse me till I ran with my mom. He used to drag me around by my ear and hit me. He even tried to rape me once, but I fought back.
I'm not sure if I'm doing this right, telling it right. But now I'm gothic and my heart has been ate by the dark. I suffer from depression. Every day the dark enters my soul and eats me alive. I suck in this place. I want to get away but I can't. Rock is my only escape, and I can't feel joy. I have no love, nor fun. I'm stuck in this hell.
My mom neglects me all the time. She is too busy trying to pay bills, and my stepdad hates me. He only gives me negative talk, and doesn't tell me the good. He yells and complains that I'm not good enough.
I just got out of an abusive relationship that my mom had with my original dad. This isn't any better. I just got an electric guitar and he (my stepdad) doesn't even care what I can do now. He only cares about the cost and that it was a waste.
I want to be a rock star when I grow older, and give an escape to other people like me, and help them the best I can. I want to rock and help, but I can't find anyone to be in a band with me who wants to get to the top.
My life sucks and no one cares. Not my bastard friends, not my parents, not family, no one. I'm alone and my future's fire has burnt out. I'll die alone and suffer, unless I can get a band; I hope on everything that I can. But it's so so so hard to find someone like me to fight the world.
I received the following e-mail from Michelle in Livermore, California, USA on March 2, 2007 in response to Sorren's story:
This is to Sorren from Harshwa, Wisconsin:
Sorren, it's clear that you feel lonely and unloved. You've already been through some serious abuse, and now you are having problems with your stepdad and with your mom's busy schedule.
I had a pretty cruddy childhood, too, and when I was a teenager, I felt that loneliness and anger that you feel. Somehow, though, I sort of felt that I was bad and weird, and that no one would really listen or understand my feelings or experiences. I did some very self-destructive stuff ... drugs, promiscuity, etc etc etc.
I eventually got over it, and now I have kids of my own, a career, and all that good stuff. That's what I am writing to you about. I want you to know that no matter how screwed up your life feels right now, it can (and will) improve. It is hard to get over the bad feelings, and especially (for me at least) the anger and my sense that I'd been betrayed. But there ARE people who understand what you are going through, Sorren, and that will listen to you. Remember, it WILL get better. Hang in there.
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Child abuse story from Sorren was re-formatted June 10, 2015
From Victim to Victory
How I got over the devastating effects of child abuse and moved on with my life