child abuse story from Sophie page was created June 15, 2007 and was originally
posted on June 8, 2007 as story #141.
is from Southampton, Hampshire, United Kingdom
following child abuse story from Sophie depicts: physical abuse, emotional
abuse, child neglect and sexual abuse
The child abuse effects on Sophie: fear, trouble at and fights in school, suicidal thoughts, feelings of being unwanted and unloved, belief that she can never make something of her life
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When growing up, you are supposed to have fun, play games, go on adventures. As a teenager you are expected to rebel, go on dates, experience the different things out there. For me, as a child and now a teenager, the only thing I can do, is live in fear.
My dad had always been abusive, mainly towards my mum, and as a young child the physical and mental abuse began to be directed at me; he was never a drunk, just someone who always wanted to be in control. There was never any sexual abuse, until the tender age of 10 and by this time my parents were divorced.
My dad was out and he left me with his best friend. We were watching a film when he drew closer. He slowly slid his hands into my pants where he had his 'play'. He began kissing me before finally leading me to his bedroom. Here, he ordered me to strip as he did the same. He made me do things to him and he did the same before finally forcing me to lay helplessly as he had his way with me, raping me. I told my dad what had happened a week later, but he just hit me and said stop the lying.
A week after that, my dad came to my room and apologised and said "don't worry what he did, he did nothing wrong." It was here where he also began sexually abusing me, although never rape.
This never really affected me in life until the age I am now. I got into trouble at school, got into fights, my life was torn apart. The thought of suicide has often come across my mind, although it does not help with the family stress I have now. I am often neglected and feel unwanted and unloved.
I told one person of the torment I have suffered, and they later called in the police. A Child Protection Officer has talked me through the process of making a statement, although I do not have to do anything until I am ready. I have yet to make that call. I desperately want to, but when picking up that Phone, I find myself slamming it down again. I know eventually I will, for this is tearing my life apart and it has screwed up any chance of making something with my life.
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Child abuse story from Sophie was re-formatted June 10, 2015
From Victim to Victory
How I got over the devastating effects of child abuse and moved on with my life