This child abuse story from Lisa page was
created February 9, 2007 and was originally posted on January 31, 2007 as story
Lisa is from Orillia, Ontario, Canada
The following child abuse story from Lisa
depicts emotional abuse and sexual abuse.
The child abuse effects on Lisa: social phobia, childhood obesity, extremely low self-esteem, nightmares, persistent crying.
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It never really seemed like abuse, but I grew
up feeling unwanted, unloved . . . and . . . I still have difficulties setting
goals for myself or appreciating what I can do. I suffer from unipolar and
My dad is bipolar, and my mom likely is
undiagnosed. My brother was born first, and 3 1/2 years later, they had me.
They decided (I found this out recently) that mental illness runs in the male
side of the family, so they ignored my brother completely for a number of years
and focused on me. Then I was ignored too as I began to show signs of mental
I cannot prove it, but I also believe my dad
(who was verbally abusive to my mother, and whom lies and manipulates) sexually
molested me when I was little. He would threaten my mom because she wouldn't
give us to him, (and he wanted me, not my brother). When I got older, and
gained weight (I became a very obese child), he ignored me nearly completely,
and paid a small amount of attention to my brother.
Usual phone calls would be him asking me about
child support or relaying things to my mother, or my dad asking about my
Meanwhile, being obese, large groups of people
would gather around me at school and put me down at fairly normal intervals.
Tell me I was fat, worth nothing, etc. Girls would yell at me or put me down if
I even glanced at them, and would tell me it was staring. I was afraid to even
look at people. I would tell my mom, and I'd be told to ignore them. So I
stopped talking to her . . . it didn't do me any good. I'd tell a teacher;
they'd yell at me and tell me to stop crying all the time.
I had nightmares three times a night, and I
cried on the school bus after school every day. I didn't take care of myself,
and I likely stank to high hell. No one would pay attention to me . . . so I
would try as much as I could to get positive attention since I got none at
My mother would get annoyed at my bedroom being
a mess, and she'd dump everything on the floor, and then yell at me to pick it
up; meanwhile, yelling put downs at me. She'd belittle me about everything I
did wrong, and never praise or tell me she loved me.
Now, at 24, I am a very compassionate person .
. . because I've been hurt so bad I'd never do it to another. But I have panic
attacks around guys, even nice ones. I sometimes burst into tears when my
friends are nice to me . . . I've never HAD that.
My mom's manipulating me because she doesn't
want me to escape her. I wonder if I'll ever get better or if it's worth living
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Child abuse story from Lisa was re-formatted June 3, 2015
From Victim to Victory
How I got over the devastating effects of child abuse and moved on with my life