
This child abuse story from Jill page was created May 5, 2007 and was originally posted to my child abuse stories page on April 30, 2007 as story #108.
Jill is from Jacksonville, Florida, USA
The following child abuse story from Jill depicts physical and sexual abuse at the hands of her brother, and neglect and emotional abuse by her parents.
The child abuse effects on Jill: eating disorders, self-harm, anger
What is the point in submitting our stories of abuse to be read by the entire world? The shame that I feel--I'm sure sex offenders come to this site, read our stories, and feel somehow gratified because of what they see.
I will not stand for the gratification. To the abusers who are reading this, you need help.
I was physically and sexually abused by a sibling, neglected by parents who didn't want to accept the truth or intervene, kicked out of the house the first time I tried to fight back because my father was on the phone with business and I was making too much noise. I struggled with eating disorders and self-harm, but I have found healing in the arms of Christ. I don't believe true healing will come until I have reached heaven's pearly gates and though I anticipate them, I will not take my own life to get there sooner. Such a thing claims power over the victim for the abuser. We are stronger than that! Keep your heads high! There are better days in front of you!
The only thing I can't rid myself of is the shame. There were several signs that no one picked up on. I don't blame anyone for not helping because I never asked for help, but it hurts that such a thing happened to me and nothing was done about it.
I thought it was a part of life until I was in high school. I thought every sibling relationship was like the one I had with my brother. I was wrong.