This child abuse story from CJ page was created
September 22, 2006 and was originally posted on September 5, 2006 as story #32.
CJ is a male from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania,
The following child abuse story from CJ depicts
torturous physical abuse and emotional abuse.
The child abuse effects on CJ: very low self-esteem, trances, and great personal anguish. He describes himself as "tortured".
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I'm not sure why I'm writing about this. I'm
not even sure I can finish this "story".
I was born in Ireland, far from civilization--as
a matter of fact, it was far from the rest of society--36 years ago. We were
very isolated and not allowed to socialize with other people.
I don't have a single memory of my childhood where I was okay. I was beaten, set on fire, hanged, and buried alive for days. Often my mom would take turns with "friends". I was referred to as "dog". When I was eight, my mom set me on fire and poured a bucket of urine on me to put the fire out.
Her entire existence was to torture me, just to
the brink of death.
Somehow, I'm not a psycho. I survived. But my
life is still tortured. I live with a memory or thoughts of my childhood daily.
I often drift into a trance and relive moments.
I often think survival has been the ultimate
torture. I can't get past the thoughts or pain.
I still carry hope, and cowardly tuck it away. I wish it would all just go away.
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Child abuse story from CJ was re-formatted May 31, 2015
From Victim to Victory
How I got over the devastating effects of child abuse and moved on with my life