Child abuse story from Annon was created April 27, 2007 and was originally posted to my child abuse stories page on March 29, 2007 as story #99. Annon is from St. Louis, Missouri, USA.
The following child abuse story from Annon depicts sexual abuse and emotional abuse.
The child abuse effects on Annon: nightmares, cold sweats, shame, fear of telling, then after telling feelings of betrayal, inability to stay focused
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When I was 13 years old, one of my older cousins raped me while everyone else was away. I felt real bad and ashamed because I didn't understand why that had happened. I felt lost, I couldn't trust anyone so I decided to stay quiet. I had nightmares all the time and I'd wake up in cold sweats. This was still bothering me, what else could I do?
I told my mother. She turned the whole story around and said that I wanted that to happen to me. That I could have stopped it if I wanted to. That hurt me more than anything in the world. The one person I thought I could trust didn't believe me and showed no type of sympathy for me.
Since that first time, when I was 13, there were 4 more times it happened to me. It's all inside. It hurts real bad to keep something like this to yourself because it's on your conscience all the time.
I can't stay focused. I wish I had enough nerve to tell the rapist how he destroyed me on the inside.
Parents, if you are reading this, please listen to your children. Mine didn't, and because of it, I got hurt even more. I'm a parent now and still to this day, it bothers me.
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