Child abuse story from Anastasia was created March 24, 2007 and was originally posted to my child abuse stories page on March 8, 2007 as story #90. Anastasia is from Kansas City, Missouri, USA.
The following child abuse story from Anastasia depicts sexual abuse, physical abuse, and emotional abuse.
The child abuse effects on Anastasia: broken bones, cut wounds, self-harm in the form of cutting, depression, suicidal tendencies, frequent stays in mental hospitals
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My story entails of sexual abuse from my father and best friend and physical abuse from my stepfather.
My name is Anastasia and I am 13 years old. When I was five, my father started touching me. It felt strange but it grew to be normal. One night, he came into my bedroom when my mom wasn't home and tied me to my bed real tight so I could not escape. He cut off all my clothes and then took his own off. I was scared. All I remember is the pain when he inserted himself into me. My father stayed in me all night and threatened to kill me if I told anyone. He did this one other night and that was it.
My best friend, Jake, found out from my father and started having sex with me. It was less painful since he was smaller than my dad was and I had already been exposed to sex. He soon left town so he could not be caught.
My mom divorced my dad and married someone else. He would hit me and call me names 24/7 when we were both home. My mom did not care since I wasn't complaining to her about it. When I was nine he broke my nose, and at age eleven, he broke both my legs and one arm. Just two months ago, he cut my shoulder to show me what it was like to feel real pain.
I have been cutting my throat for a month now. When I'm scared, I grab as many pills as I can find and swallow them all in hopes of dying. They do not work very well.
I have been in and out of mental hospitals and I'm due to go to a special one where I'll be kept for at least a year. My mother wants me to go there, but I don't want to go. I was also diagnosed with depression when I was eight but never given antidepressants.
Thank you so much for listening.
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