Relationship Violence Story From Nallely

by Nallely
(Las Vegas, Nevada, USA)

Even as i speak im still living with the horrors of my memory of what once was an abuse. It was physical and emotional. Sometimes i read other stories and notice much more happen to them then what happend to me. But then i realize I Was In an Abusive Relationship. I hope this might help others struggling with the same things i was and am struggling with. Everyday i would live in constant fear not knowing if he would show up at my house and what i would have to do to get away from him. I used to think me and him where destined to be together, he was the most amazing boyfriend i ever had. After a month with him i has head over heels over him. So i was stupid enough to move in with him. He did everything for me, wouldnt even let me raise a finger. After a while i had to go to Mexico with some family. He stayed and i left him for almost a month. When i came back thats when things took a turn for the worst. He would start be-little-ing me. Telling me i wouldnt do anything for him even though he never let me. We would get into really crazy arguments and he would emotionally abuse me. But the next day he would apologize. After that it seemed like everyday we would fight. But then one day i got really bad at what he had said so i dared him to slap me (i honestly still think if i hadnt done that he would have never hit me) at first he didnt. But then he slapped me and i said "if you ever do that again i will leave you" so he apologized and swore never again. The next day we got in a fight and again and again. About a week later we both got heated and i started yelling and he pushed me down to the bed. I got up and as he was about to push me again i put my hand to cover my self. For some reason a lot of what happend that night kinda got hazy. All i remember is him punching me in the arm then me standing on the bed telling him to calm down but that made him even madder. He pushed me down and started kicking me and telling me to get up. We both calmed down after that. The next day he apolgized and promised never again.The fights continued,I swear i didnt even notice what was going on. After a while i moved in with my brother and my boyfriend in a new apartment. For a while it seemed calm. The i found out he cheated on me when i was away in mexico. He denied everything. Weboth got yelling and he locked me up in the bathroom so i wouldnt leave. Until i convinced him i wouldnt leave him even though i knew i would. He finally told me the truth. The next day after school when he was at work i told my family i was leaving him and i never saw him again.
To this day i still love him in a despicable way and everyday i live with myself knowing what i went through and not even knowing what was going on...