Relationship Violence Story From Lucy

by Lucy
(Location Undisclosed)

Worst 4 years of my life: 
This happened about 2 years ago now, but ive never really spoken about it properly and feel i need to get it out of my system. Ive just been keeping it all to myself and I have nightmares about it.

I was in a relationship for 4yrs. As always at the begining it was fine, nothing to cause concern. 8 months in he wrapped me up in selotape so tight it cut into my wrists. He did this because i didnt want to have sex, we were running late and were ment to be somewhere. he hit me really hard a few times, i started crying and he must have felt sorry for me cos he stopped. he apologised repeatedly. I was scared but i thought must have been a one off.

After that it continued... He punched me all over my body, kneed me in the stomache, pinched me, slapped me, pushed me over, pulled me around by my hair, it hurt so much, it was painful to wash it. sometimes made my scalp bleed. He forced sex on me, cheated on me, treated me like his slave. he stopped me from going out with my friends, made me feel bad if i wanted to see my family and he even told me what i cld and cldnt wear.

Why didnt i leave him sooner? cos every time i tried he just hurt me, locked me in his car or in a room. in the end i had a massive panic attack and his mum was in, she called my mum over and i got out the house. never went back. worst 4 years of my life!

Thankfully now i have a boyfriend who is the complete opposite. but unfortunatly its always going to be in the back of my mind that he may turn the same. i have very little trust in people and i really want that to change.