Letter to a Monster

by Patricia
(New York, USA )

I'm writing you this to finally get off my chest! How could you take away my childhood! Instead of being daddy's little girl you used me as a rag doll. How and why would you do this to me! You were supposed to be a father and protect me. Instead you used me! And my mom did nothing to protect her own daughter from this monster. You get remarried and you allowed the same thing to continue.

I was afraid, scared to tell anybody but guess what. I speak out after 30 years!!! This is my JOURNEY to HEALING!!!

Patricia, NY - Personal Story of Healing & Triumph!

My Journey:

You think talking about abuse is hard, try living it!

I wrote a 10-page letter about my abuse. I was sexually abused by my real father AND from my mother's husband who I refuse to call a step-father.

The abuse took place when I was a few months old from my real father. After my parents got a divorce, the other abuse (from my mom's new husband) was taking place from ages 8-13. I remember every word and every move. I never told anyone cause I was told he would kill me.

Well, I finally opened up after 30 years and I have survived and lived to tell my story.


What kept me going and helped me to not give up and to keep moving forward, was the strength I found when I had my children. Now, I have moved on and also found strength in my supportive boyfriend who helps to keep me going!

I keep my mind on positive things and the bad memories are stored away in my memory bank. I keep busy with my life and through this new found strength by sharing my story, I want to help and inspire others! By talking about my story, I'm not ashamed anymore; I moved on and am flying free!!!!

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Jan 28, 2016
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Your "real father" was your birth father. Nothing more. He gave up being a real father the moment he abused you. A real father would never do such a reprehensible thing.

Healing is a process. And you've chosen to heal. Many do not. Many are still trapped in the identity of having been victimized. Your strength got you out of that mentality. And you know how strong you are...this is something to be very proud of.

Writing your feelings and emotions in the form of a letter to the monster is very cathartic. I did this myself many years ago. It was very cleansing. Even more so when I symbolically let it all go by setting the paper I'd written it on ablaze and watching all of it go up in a stream of smoke, watching the papers turn black and curl up just like the soul of the being who had been so abusive to me. That's how it felt at the time.

Speaking out about your abuse is another step along the road to healing and recovery. For you, and for others who read your story. Both can be very helpful as you walk this path, Patricia. Keep up the good work! Keep seeing your strength!

I send you love, light and healing energy. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

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