I have friends here
by Jen Bell
Ok, I guess I'm ready to tell the rest of what happened and how and why it has effected me so profoundly. When my uncle was done licking me out, I felt as if my body said owwwnoooo. So it was an angry first orgasm. He then flipped me over onto my stomach and put his finger into my a**hole and asked me if I wanted him to put his penis in there. I cried no, my head was turned to the right, the wall was on right and remember a tear out of my right eye. He then raped me vaginally and I turned my head to the left and I threw all of my energy into my skull. I saw my skull, my head was turned to the left. When he was done I had to pull up my tights and go to the bathroom where I sat on the toilet and dripped white stuff into the toilet. All I knew then was that it was like milk, the same painful stuff my mother used to spray me with, her breast milk, she used to spray me with her breasts while she was feeding my sister on the other.I sat on the toilet and felt to myself that both were evil. breasts and penises. They both spanked me. Because I am conceived in Australia I cannot communicate without ignoring their biology, or something like that. I got confused and spun out of control and into denial. It was just as physically to come out of it, and I am being used as a petri dish for the american medical association the whole time through. Torture? yeah, I know a bit about it. |