Ghosts and Voices

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Ghosts and Voices

by Elaine Ellis
(Lancashire, UK)

I have a ghost in my house.
I have a voice in my head.
And I couldn't tell you,
If I'm alive, or I'm dead...

There are things in life I've wanted,
And, oh, how I've tried.
Seeking love, care, affection.
Seeking success, attention.
How many times have I cried?
Where did I go wrong?
What did I do?
Won't somebody tell me?
I can't think it through.

When I thought things might be working,
And, oh, how I've tried.
The voice cried out "useless!".
The whisper said "hopeless!".
I could have curled up and died.
Where did I go wrong?
What did I do?
Won't somebody tell me?
Are the words I hear true?

When I felt I'd reached a breakthrough,
And, oh, how I've tried.
The ghost came to haunt me,
A spectre to taunt me,
And I had nowhere to hide.
Where did I go wrong?
What did I do?
Won't somebody tell me?
Is my fate overdue?

I need to silence this voice.
I need to exorcise my ghost.
I want to live the life I crave,
And need my freedom the most.
But I cannot fight alone, for I'm afraid to recall
Who it is that haunts my thoughts, fills my head and chills my heart.

I have a ghost in my house.
I have a voice in my head.
And I couldn't tell you,
If I'm alive, or I'm dead.

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Jul 16, 2011
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Always believe in your self: Get help: You'll be fine
by: Anonymous

Please be gentle and kind but firm, take action, speak with a therapist: Have a real friend or two your own age and gender: (most important) from our school days or childhood years we know that having a friend we can tell our innermost thoughts and secrets to is a great relief: Knowing we have their trust and they ours: Friends to me can at times mean more than siblings do: The old saying, you can choose your friends but not your family: There is so much talk about child abuse The positive and the negative that at times even in recovery and healing from the effects and doing one's best to let go and live one's life to the full Ghosts and voices of the past emerge and letting them pass by or go can be a testing time once again: But let go I must and get on with living the NOW time of my life: I have learned and been helped by Darlene's comments to each of her visitors: I find solace and support in her loving encourageing words from her heart to each one of us: She truly empowers me to ALWAYS BELIEVE IN MYSELF: That you must do too: with real friend and some form of counselling you'll begin to Live the NOW time of your life to the full, looking forward not back: It is a struggle, but you take charge of your own life's journey NOW: Today: I WILL I CAN I MUST Because I am WORTH it: Have a healthy mind in a healthy body: I will etc my new motto:

Jul 16, 2011
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Thank you
by: Denise

I can relate to this more than you know. I have gone through being abused by my brother-in-law sexually from the age of 7. Due to lack of parental help when telling, the stage was set for a downward spiral for many years, leading to clergy abuse and a whole host of things in between. I am interested in starting a blog to both tell my story and take questions and help others. Can you advise how to proceed, blogs to follow, etc? Thank you.

Jul 16, 2011
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Talk it out with someone you trust:: A good and true friend
by: maurice

I forgot to put my name to the last comment because I pressed on the 5 stars and forgot to write my name: Darlene always advices the best way forward is some form of counselling: Blogs etc I am sure she would name if she thought this was a way: But if you read through all her thoughts and essays on all aspects of child abuse you will find one maybe two that will point you in the right direstion: The great thing Elaine is that you want to move forward and make a life for yourself: You will: share your dreams with your nearest and dearest friends; Together you'll do what is right for you: Don't forget that healthy mind in a healthy body bit I encouregd you in my previous comment under anonymous: You will be a winner: I WILL: I CAN: I MUST BECAUSE I AM WORTH IT: YOUR MOTTO

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