Chlid Abuse Story From Derek

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Chlid Abuse Story From Derek

by Derek
(New York, USA)

When i was a little boy around 6 thur 17 years old I was scared of my dad he would hit me with his leather brown belt I tried to run from him but he would pin me down and start beating me and I would cry an have bruses all over my body. He would hit me for anything he would hit me with his hands his belt an a cable cord I useto shake when I saw my dad coming when he huged me I would twitch and I was afried he would hit me. One time I was walking with my dad an my sister to the store an to pick up my dads shirts from the cleaners an I was holding the shirts an they fell on the ground my dad saw it on the ground and then he looked at me mean and I went up to him an said daddy im so sorry please dont hit me please an he looked at my sister an said should I hit him an she said yes so when I got home my dad told me take off your clothes an get naked and I was shaking an he told me to get his belt an I gave it to him he started beating me and I ran under the bed an he grabed my foot an got me an started punching me an I was crying an told him im sorry daddy I love you an he stoped I had black an blue marks all over my body I put my underwear on an my clothes on my dad hit me for anything for years I was so scared of him I wouldnt do anything bad next to him. One time he was drunk an he called me in the living room an I didnt hear him I was in the bathroom an he found me throw me on the floor an took one of my feet an started biting my toes I was crying an he took my foot out his mouth an said im your f***ing father I made you what ever I say you do or I will beat you or give you a spanking on my knee I said ok daddy. So he wanted to show me that he wasnt playing he sat down told me to pull down my underwear and hes going to spank me when he was finished I went to the bathroom an checked my butt it was red an black an blue and he came in the bath saw what I was doing an he said you want more he starting hit me an I ran into my room under the bed and was crying an shaking huging my bear an my dad was like come out from under the bed an face your dad I was crying an said daddy I love you please dont hit me. He said ok son im sorry I love you to he huged me an kiss me. But my dad hit me all my life I couldnt do anything about it he hit me when I come out the shower so I could really fell the belt on my wet naked body so ot will hurt more. He useto hit me at restaurants on the street in stores he didnt care. I was so afraied I didnt want to talk to my dad sometimes one time he grabed me on the street an I though he was going to hit me so I started shaking an he said im not going to hit you boy I got something for you I said what daddy he got me a new teddybear I kissed him. He was a good dad sometimes an I loved him an I was so scared of him.

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Aug 31, 2011

Derek:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Your father was a controlling abusive brute of a man. He was all about control and power. Real men don't do what he did to you. He robbed you of your dignity, and he didn't do it out of love. He did it out of the need for power control and manipulation. He ruled with fear and he changed the rules just so he could further abuse. He needs help, but more importantly, you need help. Please seek out some form of counselling in order to deal with the repercussions of growing up so fearful and with so much physical abuse. You didn't deserve to be mistreated. You deserve help for the fact that you were. What you deserved growing up was love, true love, to be treated with dignity and respect, and to be given a guiding but gentle hand. Your father has serious problems, and he took those problems out on you. Please seek out counselling for your Self. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Sep 01, 2011

Such uncontrolled sadism
by: Anonymous

Derek, where was your mom? Anyway, what a sick, sadistically insane, deluded monster that so-called dad of yours is for beating and berating you. How dare he! You only deserved (and still deserve) love, protection, dignity and respect, none of which you ever received. Oh, and did I mention that he also abused your sister by teaching her to believe that beating you is OK as well? The path that he chose is inexcusable. You are not to blame for his sadistic behavior; he is to blame because he chose to abuse you. You were the child, he was the adult; he had all the power and only misused it over you. I really hope that you're in a safe place, far away from him; if not, please tell someone you really trust and keep telling until he/she will finally listen to you and help you. Oh, and please look into reporting that beast as well.

Sep 01, 2011

I AM AMAZING: The Architect of my own Destiny
by: maurice

That you are Derek: You found a safe home and haven to share your horrific physical abuse story: You also received a very empowering comment from Darlene: Read it: Study it: Than get all the help she encourages you to get and live your life to the full each day you get out of bed: I always like to read this heart message from Darlene Please seek out some form of councelling to deal with all the repercussions of growing up: Derek I assure you because I can empatise with the physical abuse part of your growing up in fear of the controll, beastly sicko freak of a Father: You have taken the big step, bu sharing the truth here with darlene and her visitors: (Family) Now be in charge of your own destiny in all she wrote to you: I will: I can: I must because I am WORTH it; That you are Derek: Also having a healthy mind in a healthy body will help you too: So get out there being active and alive with your friends ur own age and gender playing inteam sports and taking part in sporting and cultural activities: You'll get a greater sense of yourself after a few times being a team persson: Vlue and have a respect for your body: You'll be fine: You'll be a winner over that abusive Father: My motto I will, etc because I am Worth it.

Sep 27, 2011

telling is the first step to recovery
by: Jill

Derek,
I'm so sorry that this happened to you. Your dad's addiction/behavior problem was never anyone's responsibility but his. Realize that your father is avoiding his feelings about himself. No parent should ever beat a child.

When he says he loves you, he's using the words to cover up the confusion and horror he's inflicted on you. It's crazy making and has nothing to do with real love because he loves no one. His sick behavior is all about bullying and revenge in his make-believe world. It's likely he was also a victim of childhood abuse.

When he intimidated and beat you, he saw you as an extension of himself. To him you were a possession, not a person. You were raised by an overgrown toddler which is unreal. Inside he never grew up. You are far more mature than he's ever been.

Your body is your own and no one has the right to touch you - ever. You have the right to be treated with dignity. Mature adults see that their body is separate from everything else.

The world you are leaving was so upside-down. It's important for you to get in touch and reconcile your own feelings about your body now so you can be real and at peace with yourself.

Find peaceful ways of boosting your esteem. A counselor advised me to take up martial arts to give me more esteem. I heard my inner voice say, "After being beaten up, Why would I want to witness or contribute to beating up others or myself? No way!"

As for your sister, she will need to seek help too. She became a passive abuse victim when your father forced her to consent to his abuse of you. I was abused by my father, mother, and older brother. I witnessed my dad beat my brother with a belt. It was horrifying and I felt so helpless. My mom was passive and didn't ever say anything.

The abuse cycle in my family started to seep out of me toward my own beautiful, precious children. I couldn't figure out where it came from because I'd completely disassociated from it. While taking apart an old mattress one day, it triggered the memories of my childhood abuse from 1-20 and I ended the cycle. I feel so lucky to be able to be real with my kids about everything and give them a safe, loving family.

Telling your story to people who care is the first step to your freedom and recovery from your painful childhood.

Your past doesn't have to define your future. There's so much you can do to make a difference in your life and the lives of others.

Let your understanding of what happened grow to replace the nervousness you felt when you were at the mercy of your dad's hands. You have the opportunity to develop the confidence to trust and love those around you. Hear your strong positive, calm inner voice, and spread your gift of caring to others.

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