Child Abuse Story of Healing and Recovery From Kara

by Kara
(Grand Junction, Colorado, USA)

Another picture I took in Japan

Finally: 
I have written a couple abuse stories here on this site, but tonight I will write of my healing.

I was over at my boyfriend's house earlier this evening. We were playing 50 questions, not 20 but 50. It's kinda like getting to know each other better. I asked him, "Why and in what way do you see me beautiful?"

His answer: "There was something about you that just drew me in and no matter who my friends tried to set me up with, I always came back to you. You're different. You're not completely focused on yourself. And you care about things. That's why I say you're beautiful."

We sat there in silence for a few minutes. Then he asked me if I was ok because I hadn't said anything. In truth I was trying not to cry. I told him I was ok. And right after I said it, it hit me. I was ok for the first time in a very long time. I truly was ok. The pain was gone. And I really did start crying. Poor guy. It scared him. He thought he had said something wrong. It took me a while to explain that they were happy tears.

After I was done crying, I wrote another poem. This time for my boyfriend.

Finally
I've cried all my tears.
Enough to fill an ocean.
The last one finally fell.
I'm ok now.
My heart's not broken any more.
You've filled in all the cracks.
You held me when I cried,
That ocean full of tears.
My life has turned around.
I'm not afraid to trust you now.
Nothing else is wrong.
I'm truly happy now.
I've cried all my tears.
Enough to fill an ocean.
The last one finally fell.

My healing has come in small bits and pieces. I talked about what I have been through. That's what truly helped me. So talk about it, write about it, do something to get it out in the open. You won't regret it when you can say the words "I'm ok now" and truly mean it.

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