Child Abuse Story of Healing and Recovery From Just Me

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Child Abuse Story of Healing and Recovery From Just Me

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I've had a very hard time dealing with the things I've had to endure. Only now, I'm trying to notice the good things in my life and not the bad. I've moved into a new foster home and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I'm working with a PSR worker who is trying to help me. I don't know that I'm healed, but I'm trying. I mean, does that count for anything? I want to be happy more than anything in the world. I'm just not sure how to get there. I've had many therapists to talk about the things that have happened to me, but the problem is, it's hard for me to talk about it seriously.I try not to feel things and if I'm being serious then I feel it. I'm trying to work pass that. I know that what happened to me is not my fault, but it doesn't make the pain any less severe. I'm doing sports, Basketball in particular. I sing and write songs. I keep a journal. I try to tell people how I feel. I tell people my story because it helps me to get it out, but it seems that kids always look at me different. They either think I'm a freak or that I'm crazy, or they baby and pity me. I don't like that. It's okay though. I'm not really in to what others think about me. I don't know if what I'm saying right now is worth putting on this site, but I thought I'd take a stab at it. I just don't know exactly how to heal. The depression is just so bad. But believe me, I'm trying my hardest. I wish I could just blink this pain away. No matter what has happened to me, I know I can be better and rise above all of that. I know I'm strong. I will win this in the end. I will raise my children someday, with love and respect. I will NEVER make the mistakes my mom and others did. I can be a good person. I'm aware of my ability to be better. Now I've just got to figure out how to get rid of this pain. I cry so much that my pillows are permanently stained. oh well, maybe I need to let those tears out. 13 years of keeping them in oughta be enough.

Darlene Barriere: author. speaker. survivor. coach

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May 04, 2011

To Just Me:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

Healing and recovery are just that, heal-ing and recover-ing, meaning the present tense. The path is not on the flats; it's up and down, and it's littered with garbage and debris we must clear away in order to continue along the path. Try as we might to circumvent that debris, when we do, we are off the path and heading in a direction that is away from the healing road. I learned a very long time ago that we must go through the garbage and debris in order for healing to continue. That means allowing yourself to talk about and feel, really feel, the full range of emotions attached to what you've endured, painful as it is. But in a safe setting, like in a therapy session. I'm not an advocate of sharing with everyone all that you've endured and feel. That's reserved for the few who have proven to you they are trustworthy. Always remember that when you're sharing with a trusted therapist in a safe environment, you aren't in danger because the abuse is now over and done with. What's left are the emotions. Let them out. Cry as hard and as long as you need to. I cried seemingly endlessly when I was in therapy, but the tears were amazingly cleansing. Trust the process so that the healing can continue. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

May 05, 2011

Always believe in yourself: You'll be the winner over your abuser
by: maurice

What an empowering sense of purpose and confidence from Just Me: I receieved a positivety about you, and you being a winner over abuse that gave me hope and courage to believe you'll do fine: you'll make it in life: Be sure to live every day of your life to the full: I WILL I CAN I MUST because I am WORTH it: Just Me you sure touched the heart of Darlene too: Her comment will empower you to ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF: My new motto I WILL I CAN etc: Her genuiness, sincerity, goodness of Heart keeps expressing themselves with each comment to you and her many visitors: We all are getting to know a very speecial woman who has given all her visitors to her site positive thinking belief that there is a life to be lived after abuse: We are slowly following her footsteps becoming victims into victory over our abusers: I like the JUST ME anonyminity: That is who I try to be: Just Me:

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