Child Abuse Story of Healing and Recovery From Cindy
by Cindy
(Trinidad)
Revelation 12:11: And they overcame him by the blood of the lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.
She was emotionally abused, sexually abused, and raped. She was only 7 years her dad had died. all she ever wanted was to be loved by family members. one by one her step brothers had their way with her. They would have oral sex with her and one would make her have oral sex with him. they finger her little by little untill they took her innocence from her, they touch her all over her body, they made her pose for them and one would watch margzine and news papper with naked woman and he made her try to pose like these woman in order for he to see the real thing in front of him. she didn't know what that salty stuff was that would go into her mouth she did not know why her stepbrothers were doing that to her. she just could not understand why? Don't let anyone know they say they made it look like a game. her mom had found out about one of them from her brother they left the house and went to rent somewhere not too far from where she was living. even though he left and the other was not living with her they both would still be around. she wanted to tell someone, but her mom had said, "what goes on in my house, stays in my house." and that her dad before he died hold a cutlass to cut off is head for trying to do the same thing with her big sis he had pull down her zip. her mom had said thouse things not knowing that this girl had aready become sexually active and she was now playing with herself when no one was around.
Sometimes this little girl she would go to her room alone and sit by herself an cry she would even ask god to send her dad back and if he can't send him back as an angel to look over her. her face was always sad knowing that her dad had died and her mom found pleasure in someone eles and did not had time to spend with her, she felt so alone an needed someone to call dad. if only there were some where she could just be in peace away from the cussing and things that was going on home.
She started secoundary school. she thought things would be good but what she did not know was she was still a child and needed someone to guide her true untill she was wise enough to do things on her own. her mom was not really around for her her sisters had left but still her mom kept telling her that she got a 1st cousien he is a principal of a school and she should go an look 4 him. the girl did not untill 1 day she did. this was alot for a 14 year old to take. she had already developed a split personality name cinderella she wanted to get rid of all the guys that were hurting this little girl, but cinderella told the little girl she couldn't operate in love. she was raped force into having sex with her mother 1st cousien he told her she was beautiful and sweet and he wanted a relishionship with her so the little girl thought she had nothing more to lose so she play it like a game just like when she was a little kid at that same time another man who the little girl mom had coming home by her he had his eyes on her untill he too got to play with her too he rape her. when she finish school she found out that she had gotten 2 cxc she was so ashame did not nowhere to go or who to talk with even though she had sisters however she trusted that her mother cousien wud make things right instead he did not it lead to step sister man he rape her. she became more stress and was now smoking, drinking, liming, playing around with other guys. day by day this girl prentended to be someone she was not she did say no to these man instead they took advantage of her they stole from her.
All she needed was to hear the little girl say ,"i hate u" to all the man that was hurting her. the little girl refuse. just say it cinderella would often tell the little girl not to worry ,god is good, one day things wud be great and everything in the dark will come to light.
Day by day this girl prentended to be someone she was not they made her feel worhless, without any value they humiliated her, crushing her diguity self worth, they ignor what matters to her, the treatning her they ask her to do unpleasant things told her to stay away from friends and family members untill she felt she had no freadom they was useing her for their personal advantage she was their sex slave.
After a few years, god had answerd her prays she had said no! And this time she did stand firm ,god have forgiving her she is now born again and god had send her the husband she had prayed for, someone who would love her for who she is an respect her, she can tell anything to him and he would do his best to put a smile on her face. ever since she had gotten her prays answered she thought it was over. like i said "she thought" only to find out that she had an s.t.d. Because of her past.
This girl cry an cry because she have been true alot so much that no one realy knows or could feel her pain but god and her husband. now because of pray, the grace of god and salvation this girl is now living s.t.d free she is now blossoming.
O lord my god, I cried unto thee and thou hast healed thee. Psalm 30:2.
P.S this little girl is me...
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