Child Abuse Story of Healing and Recovery from Bob
by Bob
(Connecticut, USA)
My Childhood in a Nutshell:
I was 11. My abuser was 17. He offered me cigarettes and friendship. I didn't know what it was he wanted me to do. He asked me to take down my pants and he preformed oral acts on my penis. I was UN-aroused, and to my knowledge, I had never had an erection till I got older. Now I knew what I had to do for cigs & friendship.
After a few days—maybe weeks went by—I didn't want to do this anymore and told him to stop. He did "Thank God". But why did God let this happen to me?
Did I do something wrong?
I must be a bad Boy!
SHUT THE DOOR.
Keep every one out.
Hide.
Don't tell anyone.
Years go by.
I'm 28.
My older brother tells me his son was raped by a Boy Scout leader.
My first confession...
I tell my brother to shut up don't talk about it it's bad for his son, this happened to me!
Now the wheels in my mind start to turn.
A few months later for some strange reason, my abuser reappears in front of my eyes for the first time in all these years.
STOP, DANGER, RUN, HIDE, KILL HIM, KILL ME...
I only knew this had to stop.
I got professional help.
After 3 months of some intense psy help and opening the doors, telling my story to my loved ones, I'm on the road to freedom. I am now 52 years old. I live a good life but, from time to time, I have a visit of my past when I read a newspaper or hear a news report. I think time is a good healer, but it never goes away completely.
Bob
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