Child Abuse Story From Susan T
by Susan T
As I sit I wonder why and how I got myself into another bad relationship. Growing up my mom and dad were good parents to my brother and I, although they divorced when I was 7, I still had a close relationship with my dad. Always, daddys little girl, still to this day. When I was 11 or 12, thats when it all began... The sexual touching is how it all started, and this was by my older brother. To go into great detail, I cant. I dont want to bring all of those emotions that I dealt with back into play. I never told anyone until I was 21. I told the one person I thought I could trust. My now exhusband. I made him promise me never to tell my mom and the first thing he did was call her. I know out of concern, but I felt betrayed. I dont think that I ever fully trusted him again after that. It caused a HUGE problem with my relationship I had with my mom. She never once believed me, ever. Still to this day she does not believe me and I am now 43. Then... my second marriage came along. My daughter was 12 when I remarried. She was my life. I raised her by myself and we were and still are very close. My husband and I had a little boy who was perfect I was a stay at home mommy and had it made. But.... I will NEVER forget as long as I live the day I came home and my daughter wasnt anywhere to be found. She was 14 at the time. I called all of her friends, her boyfriend... everyone. Nobody knew where she was. Then, my now ex husband, left to go to his appt.... I got in my car with my son, 1 at the time, and drove over to her boyfriends house. His dad was just getting home and he came up to my car... I ask, where my daughter was and he looked at me and said you dont know do you... I thought, Oh good Lord, my daughters pregnant... no it was much worse. Her step father had been sexually molesting her. I never NEVER.... did not believe her. I WAS NOT going to be like my mother. I broke down and started crying. How could I have let this happen... how come I didnt know what was going on. I felt so sad for her and it brought back all of that emotion and hurt that I had to endure as a child and as an adult. And my story goes on and on... I could probably write a book about my life... Now, as I sit crying... remembering... all the pain for what I had suffered and then my daughter had to suffer that same pain... It still rips my heart out. And I keep getting into bad relationships. Now, I have ended up with a man with a young son who I adore... and feel very sad for... because his daddy is severly abusive to me, emotionally more than physically, still hurts all the same, and I see this little innocent child acting out the same anger his daddy has. His daddy was emotionally abused as a very young child by his mother, for the life of me I can NOT wrap my head around the things that his mother did to him. I can NOT ever meet this woman... EVER!! His dad got custody and not only was he emotionally abusive but also physically abusive... SEVERE physical abuse. Now I suffer through his abuse towards us... The whole house. My son is scared to leave me alone, which to me is so sad. Hes only 7 years old. Im not able to work at the moment do to an accident and may need surgery so money for me is a HUGE issue. I feel so trapped. So this is my story. We all have one. Some worse than others but it all hurts the same. I would like to add... My daughter is now almost 21 and due with my first grandchild soon... She is doing ok but I know that she will need therapy. But she has to be ready for it. My son does not see his abusive alcoholic father. I wont allow it. I have been to therapy and although it never really goes away you learn to deal with it a little better.  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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