Child Abuse Story From Steve

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Child Abuse Story From Steve

by Steve
(Kentucky, USA)

Twice Sexually Abused:
I was sexually abused twice as a child although I didn't recognize it for what it was at the time. The first time happened when I was in the hospital for an extended time suffering from rheumatic fever. I often had to get injections in my bottom and one nurse, a female, seemed to delight in my not wanting them. When she would get tired of my protests and force me to roll over, she'd lift my hospital gown and give me the injection. Then she would roll me back over and briefly fondle my genitals, telling me it was my "reward." I have never forgotten how ashamed this made me even though I know I didn't comprehend what was going on. The worst part about this for me was I saw that woman around town all the time for years after.

My second time was so horrible that I still have nightmares about it. I was 11 and two high school boys cornered me in an empty locker room and one held me down while the other forced himself inside my mouth. It only lasted about five seconds, and there was no climax, thank God, but the event left more of a scar upon me than anything else ever has. And I have never told anyone in person about it. I hope that by telling it here at least it will help me to start feeling better about myself. Then I somehow felt these events were my fault, but now I at least know they weren't. Still, I wish I could forget them.

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Jun 29, 2011

Steve:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

The closest thing you can come to "forgetting" what happened in either situation is to bring the light of understanding to your thoughts about what happened. Our minds don't typically allow memories to just go away completely, but our thoughts about what happened are the very things that keep us haunted and imprisoned. When we change what we think then we automatically change how we feel, which in turn automatically changes how we act. Consider counselling in order to deal with the effects of both of these sexual abuse incidents. But also, consider the work of Byron Katie or Colin Tipping. Both have similar approaches to dealing with what happens to us. You need only keep an open mind, and then actually do the work they suggest. They don't advocate denial; rather, they promote examining your thoughts and then turning them around in order to bring clarity and perspective into your life. And you deserve that, Steve. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Jun 30, 2011

There is goodness and greatness in me: I'M SPECIAL
by: maurice

Steve: almost identically something like you have related here on Darlene's safe site happened to me: I was 11/12 when I was in hospital, I was very frightened, very nieve and very innocent: but very conscious of my body: Like all children of that age: Having shared that with close friends it made it a more natural and real happening than it's effects on me then and certainly now: Darlene sure helped me as i am sure she will you Steve put it in perspective especially now all these years later: She sure knows best: So read her comment to you, heed it, pay special attention to what she wrote re helping yourself to put it all in perspective NOW. Have a healthy mind in a healthy body: Steve that will be the most natural way to put it in perspective: Get out and about with like-minded people your own age and gender and take part in team sports and sporting and cultural activities: You'll know the difference it will make about letting go of the thoughts we all have of what happened us as children that years later have still a bearing on anwering the question Who am I? we must all answer that question before we make a real sense of alot of stuff in our life: You will Steve: You have let out your true feelings here on a very safe haven site: With Darlene as a great steward of her very special and helpful site for all her visitors to receiev courage and support to tell their true abuse stories and the long or short term effects such abuse had on them: Steve: ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF: I will: I can: I must: because I am WORTH it: That is the truth about ME; look in that mirror and be totally affirming of yourself and let the REAL me stand up NOW: some form of counselling will help you put what your wrote in perspective: It will help alot to allowing you to live your life NOW to the full by letting go:

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