Child Abuse Story From Steve1
by Steve
(Location Withheld)
Abused by Music Teacher:
There is hardly a day goes by without my remembering my music teacher, who was a great friend, but who abused me when I was 13/14.
I would go for organ lessons and during the service he would try to get his hands down my trousers. It was a bit of a game - he adopted the classic abuser's strategy of not forcing, but waiting until I removed my hands from protecting my privates, in other words he waited for me to give permission. It was at the same time abusive and thrilling. I was ashamed of enjoying it and the way it made me get an erection. I remember being surprised when he got through my underpants and started stroking my penis. 'That's only something I do in private' I thought and determined that he would not make me orgasm. It was all very confusing. Especially about who was controlling whom.
In those days (1970) there was little support - I went to a child help organisation who advised me to wait until he got married!
The abuse was extremely mild (he just masturbated me) compared to many other folk's experiences, but it had consequences.
I would go home and replicate what he had done to me on my brother (2 years younger) which has had lasting effects on us both.
It has made me realise how the abused can become abusers so easily.
My abuser is dead now. I still have not come to terms with my enjoying it so much, neither have I found out if he had any other 'victims'.
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