Child Abuse Story From Stacey Surviving Girl
by Stacey
It all started when I was about three years old.. My father was deaf and my mother had left us. My dad was always high so he never really was sober. One day I went into the bathroom to use it and my dad was sitting there waiting. I turned around to leave because I thought he needed to use the bathroom but he grabbed me and told me it was ok. He then began to take his pants off and made me give him oral. He told me to pretend like it's a lolipop. After that day, the things he would do with me would get worse and worse for 7 years. He touched me. He would come in my room at night and just throw himself on top of me and just touch me and preform sexual acts. I would lay there innocent and helpless screaming for help and for him to stop. I knew he couldn't hear me. So I would punch him and hit him until he stopped. He would always curse me out and told me I was worthless. It got to the point to where he would force me to take showers with him. He even started molesting my cousins and began favoring them, because one of them liked it. He gave her gifts all the time. Cause she was a good girl. As for me, he always begged and pleaded for me not to tell. As him being my father and ONLY parent hurts. At ten is when I stood up for myself and told him to Stop or else. He stoppped then. Now I'm 16 years old, living with him. I feel as it never happened. I always wonder if I'm normal because my past doesn't haunt me. It just makes me feel a little uncomfortable around my dad. So I dont wear short shorts or even bathingsuits around him. I don know if I completely forgave him or I just learnt to deal with it. I think of myself being pretty strong enough to be a survior. I went all these years without therapy or any moral support. NOBODY knows, not my closet friends or family. It's a secrete that lies between me, my father and my two girl cousins.me and my father have a pretty close relationship now, we argue a lot and I know he holds regret. He goes to a deaf church and says he's prayed god for forgiveness. I just hope someday I'll be able to share this with my family. I am blessed to have this tough sheild that helps me live each day with this dark cruel secrete.  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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