Child Abuse Story From Sophie2

by Sophie
(Location Undisclosed)

The reason I'm writing this is because I know there are so many people out there who this happens to who I pray each night will find the courage to seek help, unlike me.

My childhood was fights. All my memories are of fighting with my parents. Since I was 4 or 5 years old I have memories of being punched, kicked, slapped, hit leaving me with scratches and bruises. Even at such a young age I was the one who started the fights. I was a very weak child. I had no strength in me for a 5-year-old girl against two fully grown adults so, each time they would purposely wind me up waiting for me to snap I would lash out at them. They would ignore me for days. When I was bad, they would hurt me until I couldn't move. They would pull me by my hair and throw me against the stairs. I told my family and they just said I deserved to be punished for being bad.

Every night I would cry in my bed, unable to find anyone who would believe me. I kept a notepad so I could write down all the incidents but my dad found it and ripped it up.

The abuse stopped until 2 years ago. When I was watching TV in my room my mum came in and dragged me from my bed by my hair and started banging my head against the wall.

I am now 15 years old, and this year I got told I was a victim of child abuse. I still feel like I deserved it all as that's what I was told to believe. I wish there was someone I could have told long ago who would have believed me to save me from the lasting effects I am facing. Every day I remember. It never leaves. The hardest thing to accept is that you love your parents but they didn't love you. I can only hope to help others like me and encourage them to seek help before it's too late. Thank you.

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