Child Abuse Story From Shadowlight and Co

by Shadowlight and Co
(Location Undisclosed)

We have dissociative identity disorder (DID) which is why we speak in plural so often: 
We are scared to put this up as so many have not believed us in the past... We do not remember that much of the bodys history, but we do know bits and we shall share those. When the body was small the mother would punich it if we ever cried. The mother saw crying as weakness, and weakness was bad. She said she was trying to make us stronger. She would pur cold water over us or lock us outside, we cannot remember the reasons for this.

When we were 6 our half brother was born. THe mother got married when the body was 5, but we do not remember this. Soon after this the mother tried to kill herself, we saw... It was awful. She lived though, we are told that we saved her, we called the ambulance, but we do not remember this.

THere is a gap here in memory. Next we remember the body was 10 and the mother was shouting at us. Saying we are selfish and weak, then she came at us with a knife... we still hav the scar now.

At 15 the mother told us to drop out of school and get a job as we were too stupid to do anything other than stacking shelves anyway. We refused, so she threw us out... We ended up homeless for 2 weeks before someone offered us a flat. But the landlord came round, manipulated us, saying we had to date him or we would be evicted.... we complied, we had no choice. After a few months he sold us to a drug dealer for a night as he had no money. That night we were raped at knife point.

The man we lived with started to get violent, hitting and beating us. threatening us and tying us up.
By now we were at college, and had 2 part time jobs, but he still expected us to do all the cooking and housework, and would punish us if it was not good enough.

Then he started to rape us too... we got pregnant twice, lost both children...

We ran away when body 19, told noone where we went. Now the body is 22, and we live with the hosts new partner, he is good to us and very kind. We still struggle though, with nightmares, flashbacks, hypervigilance, anorexia, self-harm and agoraphobia to name a few... But slowly we are recovering, our past makes us who we are, it has taught us much. We just wish that we could remember it all.

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