Child Abuse Story From Samantha

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Child Abuse Story From Samantha

by Samantha
(Kansas, USA)

It started when I was 11...I had first gotten my monthly..was so shocked to see blood that I ran to my moms room..she wasn't there but my stepdad was laying in bed...I've never told anyone..I'm crying as I'm writting because I regret having gone in that room..I told him..oh my god I'm bleeding..he told me come lay down..so I did but I never expected for him to touch my private and tell me you are now a young lady..then he touched my breasts and said these will get bigger and fuller..do they hurt?..I was like shocked that I answered in fear yes..I got up and left to my room..then about one week later...my mom worked graveyard..so me and my 2 sisters and one brother were home with him..then that night while I was sleeping..I woke up to a heavy feeling..it was him on me..I can't go more into detail but he did rape me..I was in shock..couldn't sleep..I waited for my mom just to see her and be safe but when she got home she was yelling at me and spanked me because he told her I had been bad andwas hitting my sister...not true..but I know she was tired from working late..so I had to go to school but everything felt different...I went home sick with a headache and he picked me up I was expecting my grandma..he was like touching me all the way home and I was crying..as soon as we got home I saw my mom was not in a good mood so I went to my room...I never told anyone because I was scared...I completely went into depressive mode..suicidal mode. Got into drugs..I was in and out of rehabs since 11 I didn't trust anyone to tell them this awful thing..then he did it 4 more times through and he became abusive and I did try to kill him twice..everyone thought I was crazy which I probably am..but I didn't know what to do. Then my mother became abusive as well. I also got molested by 2 older cousines when I was about 12-13 and when I told my mom I got in trouble because they thought I was lying...I got really bad into drugs well my choice till now is marijuana...he is still with my mom till this day I'm 24 and he is still trying to ruin my marriage and take my kids away..why? I don't know what to do I'm just going crazy still til this day...I just recently spoke with a therapist..I'm going through so much anger problems mood swings aggression it ruining my marriage and family..there's so much much more but some I feel I can't remember...and I don't want to remember. I just have so much I want to get rid of this already I want to be free but I never will be.

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Nov 28, 2011

Samantha:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

What happened to you was not your fault, and it will never BE your fault. I know you want to forget because you want to be rid of all that you do remember and all the emotions attached to remembering. No one really and truly "forgets", but one can certainly gain perspective and forget in the sense that the memories don't keep re-surfacing. I learned a long time ago that the path to "forgetting" lies not in circumventing what you're feeling; rather, the path to healing and recovery is in allowing your Self to fully feel the emotions that each and every memory brings. Burying your feelings only serve to push them down temporarily. They keep coming back to haunt you. But when you open up and allow the counselling or therapy process to work, meaning that you will work hard your Self, the rewards are almost immeasurable. It takes a great deal of courage to give your Self permission to talk about the very things you feel guilt and shame about (guilt and shame that are not yours to bear). When you do, and then let your Self cry as much as you need to, things begin to get better. Always remember that you've already lived through and survived the worst of it. Remembering now is just that, re-membering. So please, open up to the process completely and fully. You're so worthy of that. And be kind to your Self. You deserve to be treated with dignity and respect and love. Start by treating your Self with that dignity and respect and love. Thank you for sharing your story with my visitors and me.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Nov 28, 2011

Mom & Dad Abuse (Physical & Mental )
by: Anonymous

I am one of 7 children . My Mother used me as the cinderella ( nick name by others ) Dad cannot be trusted around ANY girls in family. My Dad was patting my a** one day when I was made to paint the kitchen.. Told HIM to stop, Mom says he's your father .. my younger sister was in ear shot.. It's like she gave him permission to " touch " us " He also touched most of the "girl" grand children.. Thank God he is dead!! can't do it any more.. I want to say everything about this .. but there are a lot of girls in the family.. & I think they would have to agree...& I don't think they want to re-live it!! it Needs to be said to my Mother . Even @ 85 she will scream in your face to make you believe she " is right" I thought I was the only one who got " that "ugly face " ) even now it makes me sick sick " to think about it .So what to do to releive the pain I have, & help the others, who I know are suffering..

Nov 29, 2011

The Horror
by: Anonymous

Samantha, I can't believe that your mom would beat, berate and abandon you to the so-called care of that sick pervert of a stepdad and allow him to offend you 24/7...how dare she! Shame on her for running away from you instead of protecting you from that sicko! A mother who chooses such a sick pervert over her own precious daughter is the kind of mother who didn't deserve to have said daughter in her life. Oh, and it's equally wrong for that pedophile to try and break up your marriage and take your kids away from you, let alone in his purpose of offending them. He doesn't want you to be happy and have the perfect husband he never was to your mom; he doesn't want your kids to have the perfect childhood you never had; he wants you guys to be miserable just like him (he is miserable because he chose to be that way). Anyway, you are not to blame for his disgusting behavior; he is to blame because he chose to abuse you. You were the child; he was the adult; he had all the power and only misused it over you, so please look into reporting him because sex offenders don't stop offending until they're made to stop, since he might be offending other little girls. TELL, TELL, TELL! And keep telling until someone will finally listen to you and help you.

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