Child Abuse Story From Ray

by Ray
(Oshawa, Ontario, Canada)

My name is Ray. I was 15 years old when my EX-uncle sexually abused me. I am 54 years old now, and I'm still trying to deal with this.

I was 32 when I started to have "Flashbacks". The abuse I received still controls my every day life. I have had trouble interacting with people, trusting people, allowing people to get close, etc. For years I have been in therapy, support groups, seeing psychiatrists and one-on-one sessions with counsellors.

For so many years I thought I was to blame. I thought I did something to deserve what happened to me. It took years of therapy to realize I did not deserve it. I trusted this person, and he took advantage of that trust.

For a long time I asked myself why he chose my life to ruin. Maybe it was because he and his wife never had children of their own. But whatever the reason, I wonder how many other lives he's ruined.

I feel like I am in prison (an emotional prison) and this pervert put me there. For me there is no parole, but he is a free man.

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