Child Abuse Story From Olivia

by Olivia
(Location Undisclosed)

I'm very confused at this time in my life and I don't know who to talk to. I'm not sure if I'm being verbally/psychologically abused but I think I might be. I'm 19 years old and at times I want to turn this person away from me forever but I'm not sure if it's the right thing to do. Here is my story:

I was adopted at birth. Ever since I can remember my adoptive mother has been putting me down, name-calling, controlling me, and hurting me in every means she can. She goes in extreme tirades, running around destroying my things, calling me terrible names, (Ugly, fat, b**ch, unlovable, etc.) threatening to kick me out, and screaming at the top of her lungs. Even sometimes saying she wished she hadn't adopted me. She follows me throughout everything I pursue, always the voice in the back of my head telling me I can't do something or telling me I messed up and why wasn't I as good as some of the other girls on stage. I found out she got a hold of my facebook and email account password and has been reading my private messages. She also steals my phone and reads my messages, telling me all the moms she knows does this but I've asked my friends and they all report that their parents do no such things. She insults my friends when I have them over to the point that I don't invite them over. She tells me I have no friends because I'm unlikable and she lost all her friends because of my existence.

She has been controlling my relationship with my boyfriend for over a year until I recently stood up for myself and broke it off. She would force me to take him out and pressured me into having sex with him, telling me he would break up with me if I didn't. She would lie to him and text him. I don't make much money so she controlled everything I got through him. She would tell me she would stop paying for my school and pull me out, that I would never see my friends again. She also takes my money often and doesn't allow me to spend it, sometimes even spending it herself. When she first found out I broke it off with the boy she went into a drunken rage, taking all my things and kicking me out of the house. She says no one will ever love me again and I'm not as pretty, talented, or intelligent as his new girlfriend. I've begged her not to talk about him or her but she refuses to stop.

She also wont allow me to major in College in the subject I wish to major in. It's difficult knowing she is controlling my entire future. But she makes threats to keep me around.

I'm not very close with my father and she tells me he isn't proud of me. It hurts so deeply to hear these things and it really digs down deep. Recently I've come to believe she's lying about what what father thinks of me. I have low self-esteem and I've confronted her about the way she treats me. She denies doing anything wrong and makes me feel guilty for saying anything. She's manipulative and plays with my emotions to get what she wants.

I've developed a slight eating disorder and she mocks me in front of my other family members and even sometimes my friends, it's humiliating. When I try to walk away from a fight she grows furious and chases after me. If not that she abandons me. I've been left in unfamiliar cities for several hours in the past.

I apologize this is so long, I just want you to have a fairly good idea of what is going on. There is a lot more in many cases, these are just some of the things I'm working through. I don't know if what she is doing wrong or if I'm just being over-sensitive.

Thank you.

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