Child Abuse Story From Nina

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Child Abuse Story From Nina

by Nina
(Saudi Arabia)

I had 2 older brothers and my dad is working in the other country and my mum is always busy.. every christmas my dad got holiday wiv us. He is so vicious with my two brothers. they always fighting and trowing things with each other. I just rememberd when i was 8-9 my brother punch me in the face and pulled my hair and when i was 10 he throwed the small thing and it goes straight to my right eye. The doctor said im lucky because if i didnt go in the hospital emidietly im gonna be blind.. My mum is always busy she dont even know whats going on in the house...at the young age i been physically abused.. they always hurting me. Then when i was at the age of 11-13 i also sexually abused to my oldest brother when i was sleeping at the middle of the night he went in my bedroom and i woke up because he touching my private part and he just walk away and go back to his room just like nothing happened.. i cant sleep that night and i cant even sleep. and at the second time when i am sleeping again i woke up and he kissing my legs i just kicked him and cried on the other room.. the 3rd time when my family dicides to sleep all of us together and in morning i wake up again and i saw his private part fubbing in foot. i just cried, im so scared to tell it to my mum and also im too shy and i found it so embarrased.
when my parents decide to move in the other country where my dad working i aslo sexually abused to my father. At the age of 15 i gave him a chance to be a father to me and idont know how it felt to have a dad in the house. when my mum was in the office, only me and my dad are in the house he went in my room and start touching my stomach. At that time i dont have an idea why his doing this i just think he just missed me so much but on the other hand i felt theirs something wrong because he kissed me on the lips and he touched my tongue using his tongue. after that i just keep crying and im so afraid for tommorow. Evry time i sleep i remembered how he kissed me in touching my tongue. on the other day he went again on my room and said can u kissed me plz and bravely said NO to him. after that we never talk and i dont even want to see him. and now im 17 my life changed but i still cant forgot it every night that i got a nightmare my brother and my dad are always there trying to rape me.. I never tell to anyone about this. Now where still leaving together and my dad changed but even though he changed i just can forgot what he did to me...My childhood was ruined!!!!!!!!! i hate my brother and my father!!!!!!

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Aug 23, 2011

Nina:
by: Darlene Barriere - Webmaster

I understand your hatred. You've earned it. But to hang onto that hatred is to harm your Self. It's you who will continue to suffer with that hatred. While I believe that we must allow ourselves to fully experience these feelings, I also believe that when we do allow ourselves to do so, those feelings will let go of us, though you'll need help getting to that point. You haven't tried talking to your mother; and I can't say whether or not she'll be a support for you. But until you try, you'll never know. You need some form of counselling, if that's available to you. I don't know if there are any hotlines you can contact or if there are any women's resource centres in Saudi Arabia. I've done some online research, but haven't been able to find anything that would be considered current. Perhaps some of my other visitors can point you in a helpful direction. Do some research to see if there are any resources where you live. Even just to talk to someone you trust. Just always remember that you have NOTHING to be embarrassed about. You have NOTHING to feel shame for. The sexual abuse at the hands of your brother and father were NOT your fault. Fault lies squarely on their shoulders because they chose to sexually offend you. This is on them, not you. You've taken a big step sharing here with my visitors and me, and for that I thank you. Now you must take another step in order to allow healing to begin. Share with someone who can help you.

Darlene Barriere
Webmaster: www.child-abuse-effects.com
author. speaker. survivor. coach
From Victim to Victory, a memoir

Aug 24, 2011

I am taking charge of my own life's destiny: I can: I will: I must because I am WORTH it:
by: maurice

Nina: You have arrived a trustwothy stage of your life's journey: You are highly intelligent so stay in eduation: This will give you a good start in your adult life and all through it: For the many who have shared being abused as you were with me in trust and confidence I can empatise with their sexual abuse of you: Taking advantage of your beautifulness: dignity, innocence and vunerability: An older sibling taking advantage is wrong and horrible to any child/teen But a Father he totally is out of order and a beast: Your hatred for both is a real and natural hate: But don't live with that burdening you: It will effect your growth to maturity as a person and and to be fully woman: Darlene is your stepping stone to taking charge of your own destiny: At seventeen you are a young thinking adult so NOW you can make decisions that will build up your confidence and Self Worth Self Esteem: Nina, all you need now is to change your daily/weekly routine: I hope you have a real friend or two your own age and gender: who will hug and cuddle you from time to time and whom you can confide your most intimate with in total trust and respect: Very important: Now Miss Nina get out there with likeminded young women/fellow students your own age taking part in Team Sports: Oh, yes, Nina this will give you a whole new lease of life and open up new horizons for you: Dream your dreams and make them happen for you: You have gifts; You have tallents: I'm certain too you have Leadership Qualities that will benefit other when you share them around: Being a team person will give you real and natural friends for life: Many aquaintances that will cheer you up with their hello when you cross paths: Value that beautiful body of yours: Respect it and you'll erase the memories you have of those two sickos who took advantage of you and sexually abused you: You have the power to those parts sacred and special to making your whole body beautiful: Look in the Mirror the longer the better, see that ME looking out of you in all her beauty: be gentle and kind to yourself and that BODY: hug and cuddle from time to time: Hi Nina read Darlene's Comment take action and you'll be a winner over your abusers: Don't forget NOW have a healthy mind in a healthy body: Your motto in life I will: I can: I must: Because I am WORTH it. I'M SPECIAL and I LOVE ME:

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