Child Abuse Story From NewZealandGal

by NewZealandGal
(Location Undisclosed)

I didn't even think it was abuse growing up. I knew all my friends thought it was wrong. They saw how my father behaved, but no one ever said or did anything to stop it so I just thought it was normal, that I deserved it. For my father hit me constantly. Not the light spanking kind a naughty child might receive, but the great wallop across the head, legs, body kind that flung you stunned across a room. I lived in fear of my father and his anger and tip-toed my way through my entire childhood for fear of upsetting him.

The worst part was how my mother, who died many years ago, let this happen. I believe she wanted it to happen, getting joy out of my misery. I have two younger sisters who were barely touched, the beatings were all for me. To this day I think I must be a horrible person to have angered my parents so much. Why did they hate me? What did I ever do?

I'm a new mom now to a beautiful baby boy and I look in horror at his innocence and remember how small and innocent I had been. How could anyone hurt someone so small? I didn't deserve how I was treated, nobody does. But it haunts me daily. My father, the monster, is to this day still loved by all and regrets nothing. It pains me to see him so happy. He will never know his grandson, that much I can promise. He will also never know me, for while he remains unwanted in my life, conveniently oblivious to the pain he caused me, he will never know the real me. I save that person for those I truly trust.

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