Child Abuse Story From Nashe
by Nashe (female)
i was only 5 when it started. i am an only child to a single mum. the person who did this was my female cousin who baby sat me. it started with the beating. she would send me to get a stick outside and she would beat me till it finished. i always had scars on my body. i was scared to tell because she always threatened me never to tell. i was not allowed to talk in the house let alone cry when she hit me. i always dreaded going home after school. if i came home 20 minutes late i would be locked outside and for hours. every weekend i'd be thrown outside the whole day at times with no meals. she would shout at me and tell me i was useless. i would bath outside in the coldest winters with cold water. then mum bought me a bike. it became my only solace. up to now i feel comfort with the wind blowing in my face. i tried to run away at 6 years and my mother screamed at me. i felt betrayed that is when i asked her where i came from. i realized i am adopted. my real mum left me when i was a day old. i was devastated. i thot my mum knew this was happening to me. as if she hadn't done enough damage already my cousin started the sexual abuse. she would come in at night after making my life hell during the day and force herself on me. till now i can still smell her and hear her sighs and moans. she made me finger her, lick her you name it. i was so scared and began cutting myself and hurting myself at only 8. this went on till i was 10 when she moved away. 5 years of pure horror. i never told my mum till i was 13. she was sympathetic at first but now says get over it. i am finding it hard. my self confidence is low and i am mostly withdrawn. am now 2nd year in university but recently have been having panic attacks. am seeking professional help now. thank you for reading. feel better writing it down.  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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