Child Abuse Story From Name Undisclosed61
by Name Undisclosed
I have yet to forgive or forget, It started when i was 6, i lived with my cousin, he was married to a women with 3 kids, two boys and a girl. I was the odd one out because i wasnt their sibling, it started as neglect and vibral abuse, my cousin and his wife were always at work, I was the youngest, so i guess the easy target. They use to keep me from eating, and if i would eat they would do things like put dog hair in my food, they use to lock me in a closet for hours. My cousin's wife two sons, i think they were like 12 and 14, they would make a tent in their room and ask me to come play with them, it was ok at first until, they ask me to play the you show me yours and ill show you mines , i was only 6, they use to make me play with their thing and they would touch me, and make me take my clothes off, they never raped me, just made me touch and play with them, I dont know if they made their sister do this or not, but they were there and didnt stop it, but one day she got on top of me and started kissing me and she left a mark on my kneck, which they call a hickey now today, but i was kicked out of the house, 6 year old kicked out, my cousin didnt even ask me how i had gotten it, and my aunt called me a fast girl. I then moved with my sister, there it continued started as vibral abuse, she would all ways tell me no one wanted me, no one loved me, that i would always be alone. that i was ugly, she made sure i knew that i was ugly, and that my hair wasnt long enough. I think she was jealous of me as i got older, i was always the skinny girl and i guess she had issues with her own looks. She would make me wear baggie clothes to school and she never did my hair i had to do my own hair and i could never talk to boys, never experience dating, or even childhood. Her excuse for beating me, was because i would get in trouble at school, i would get in troule at school cause i knew it would upset her and it was my only way of getting some revenge then she would beat me for little things not washing the dishes, not getting along with her kids, her kids would lie on me about everything. She started to fight me when i got older i was around 13, she would acuse me of liking her boyfriend, remind you i am only 13 years of age, They were in their late 20's, and her boyfriend knew this was going on and never said anything i hated him as a man and resent men more and more each day whenever she got mad she would take it out on me exspecally if she got into a agruement with her boyfriend, she would always slap me in my face, in my mouth, hit me in the eye, she would throw things at me as in like plates etc. anything she could grab. She would put me out side for hours as of punishment, she would leave me at home or take me to my aunt house, while she and her family go out i wasnt aloud i wasnt part of the family she would say. One time we got into a fight i was 16 and i was tired of her hitting me. She popped a blood vessel in my eye, and kicked me out of the house. I was homeless at 16 no where to go no family to turn to, I lost my virginty at 16 sleeping with guys just so i could have a place to sleep, just so i could eat, just so could feel wanted and loved. I also remember when i was like 7 my cousin would blind fold me and let me play video games i dont remember much, and still dont understand, but he would touch me, and he would rub something on my lips i never actually saw his penis didnt even know what it was at that age, but i think that was what it was. I never told anyone, because my sister also was experienced this by him and she told but no one believed her. I use to think she was lying because i was in denial and didnt even believed it happen to me. I sometimes regret not taking up for my sister that day. Im living day to day with revenge and hatred for my family, i have yet to seek help, i find myself to embarass that my family would put me through this pain. I want to forgive and forget, I am now 19, I have a 18 month old son, and Im so scared that i might end up doing things to him that my family have done to me.  Note from Darlene: If I have not left a comment on your story, please understand that it is not personal; it's just that my hectic schedule no longer permits me to do so.I hope you'll follow me on:  Email addresses, phone numbers, home addresses AND website/blog URLs in submissions and visitor comments are STRICTLY prohibited. Please don't include them, as they will be removed.
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