Child Abuse Story From Name Undisclosed2

by Name Undisclosed
(Location Undisclosed)

I don't know what I'm doing: 
I don't know why I bother suddenly. I don't even know where to start. Firstly, my whole childhood I lived in another house. My old house, I can't remember anything good happening there. I was looking through pictures of my old house, and I keep getting flashbacks. Flashbacks that my sister confirmed were true.

My maid abused me and my sister for years without my parents knowing. She locked us up naked in a room in my house which we used to say was haunted. I don't remember it, just screaming and banging on the door and laughing. My sister told me what happened. I got locked in alone once. I remember crying and banging. Again my sister told me that situation. I also got beaten up regularly by my sister. Only recently, she stopped.

My father used to beat me up. He stopped a few years ago. He'd beat me for whatever my sister did wrong, because he didn't dare touch her. But now we're okay.

My sister stopped hitting me a few years ago. But she always puts me down when she's angry. Recently, she hit me. I ran away from home. I think I have anger-management problems. I get very very angry very fast, if not angry, very very sad. I don't let people see me cry. I've felt weak all my life. Because I'm small. So I don't cry in front of anyone.

Recently, this weird flashback has been coming. I heard my god-brother's name after so long, which brought on the flashback of him doing stuff to me. Sexual stuff. I don't think it's true. Maybe I'm imagining? This flashback is very familiar. Like I had it before. I don't trust myself.

I'm a very humorous wild person. But I get very very moody and reserved. These things started happening after my sister hit me recently. It's like she brought all the old thoughts back. I feel like no one loves me. Except this one girl. I don't understand why she does though. I always scream at her. I don't like people touching me. I feel weird. Was this from abuse? Or am I just some stupid over imaginative girl?

I rarely talk about my feelings, cus I don't like feeling weak, so this is hard. I just wanna know if this is abuse?

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